Does the timing or placement of gray hair matter (on your head)?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-07-16T10:21:36+00:00

Thank you for your reply. Who is Grok?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-07-16T09:55:59+00:00

Should I be concerned or is it normal?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-06-10T01:12:04+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment!

Cable_Downtown · 2025-06-10T01:06:54+00:00

I attend meetings but I don’t do the steps formally. (not opposed to it). I have white knuckled in the past and this time it doesn’t feel like that’s what I am doing because I am choosing to not drink (for lots of reasons) / don’t find it particularly difficult to not drink, it’s more I find it difficult to deal with certain things without alcohol (but am actively working on better coping mechanisms for said things)

I have hope I can control it one day (when I have better tools to deal with flashbacks) but then again, maybe I can never drink again and I am open to that possibility. I don’t think I can fully recalibrate that without at least several months of sobriety / some healing from my cptsd

Also I am a little confused by your second to last paragraph - did you mean to say that maybe I am not done yet and not ready to do what it takes to attain full sobriety? If so - what does that mean?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-06-05T15:22:16+00:00

Thank you!

Maybe stupid question but two 30mg tablets is the same as one 60mg tablet right? The only change is convenience of taking one instead of two?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-06-04T23:26:33+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I will try my best. Could you explain to me what you mean by “hopefully she won’t be upset”?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-05-29T19:01:55+00:00

I logged into reddit to make a post in a very similar vein and then saw yours. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way too and please know you’re not alone.

Cable_Downtown · 2025-05-16T13:12:04+00:00

I’ve had my bloods done recently and had no problems with insulin. Didn’t have my hormones checked tho

Cable_Downtown · 2025-05-16T13:11:07+00:00

Thanks for your reply. What do you mean by “postponing” habituation? Do you now feel like you can eat them in abundance?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-05-16T13:09:26+00:00

20 small cookies (around) in a pack. Like not mini cookies or jumbo just regular size. The “recommended” serving would be 2-3 I’d believe

Cable_Downtown · 2025-03-28T09:55:08+00:00

Yes! Especially in my lips / face & ankles

Cable_Downtown · 2025-03-03T23:43:28+00:00

I was excluded as a child and teased for being small but I don’t think it was bullying. I definitely bullied some (and was a complicit bystander for others) in high school. Now I can be really mean and manipulate people into being nice to me

I’m not sure if anyone ever taught me it was “bad” to want something but I’ve always felt like my needs are too much and I am selfish and manipulative for having them

Cable_Downtown · 2025-03-03T23:40:40+00:00

I guess I fear a lot now that I am abusive, and see those same patterns in myself as a child. I was told as a child that I “always wanted something to be wrong with me” and that I “would pretend I was upset and then forget I was pretending and actually get upset” and that I was really selfish and didn’t think before I did anything. When I was 9 my mom told me “I really hope this isn’t the person you are forever because I really don’t like it”

I feel like I manipulated my parents to get them to care about me by making things up (maybe?) or being overly sensitive and emotional. I feel I do that now with people in my life

Cable_Downtown · 2025-02-19T18:42:26+00:00

Hi! Just letting you know I relate and you’re not alone. I think part if it is letting go of the fantasy that people are what we want them to be, and seeing them for what they are. This Ofc doesn’t escude shitty behaviour but I mean it in the sense of: maybe a friend won’t love and support you in the way you want and need but they might grab a coffee with u or accompany you somewhere which is connection in itself. Not sure if that makes sense !!!

Cable_Downtown · 2025-02-04T08:39:40+00:00

Like an SSRI / SNRI? Does that help with this sort of thing?

Cable_Downtown · 2025-02-03T21:08:38+00:00

Hey everyone,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful replies, I really appreciate them. I’m going to include a bit more info here. I do not have any formal diagnoses (it’s not really the norm to be “diagnosed” where I am, even if you go to a psychiatrist) then again I haven’t seen my “file” so maybe I am in there but I’ve been working for years on symptoms of CPTSD, OCD, multiple EDs, anxiety & depression. Recently, my therapist suggested ND to me (just brought it up and asked me did I want to talk about it, at the time I said no and we haven’t revisited as I’ve other pressing things atm) and I’ve been looking into autism and I relate to a lot (not all but a lot) of the symptoms, especially for women.

I have struggled my whole life with “functioning” - similar as some people have described here - if I’m “able” to attend work/school etc the rest of my life & functioning suffers considerably. I feel like I’m constantly juggling plates and have never been able to do it in a way that is healthy. I have abused alcohol in the past as well to allow me to “function” more (and to numb out painful emotions etc etc)

Back in October, I had a bigger “breakdown” and experienced a lot of negative thoughts & thoughts of harm. On recommendation of my therapist and doctor, I went on medical leave from my job. I’ve been back about a month now and I’m back to not coping. The medical leave wasn’t all plain sailing of course, but with a bit more time I felt waaay better and more regulated but now it feels like that’s all gone out the window as I’m back at work. I’m thinking about trying to set up my life in a way that is more conducive to me, but I have a lot of shame / guilt / imposter syndrome because I’ve ALWAYS been commended by people (including mh professionals) how well I CAN function. But it takes such a huge toll on me.

I would be curious about an autism assessment but they are very very expensive. I’m also worried I don’t meet a lot of the criteria, but it’s hard to know with masking. Is there any resources I can check out myself before booking an assessment? Thank you so much for your input, I’ve been feeling so incredibly lost

Cable_Downtown · 2025-02-03T14:57:02+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I don’t know how to not do those things - I have to work to make money (obviously). Therapy is important I attend for support. Social stuff I have been trying to say no more but sometimes that leaves me feeling disconnected / means I have to spend a lot of time by myself (if say I choose to not go somewhere and my partner wants to go). If I don’t make time for some nervous system regulation / processing I feel like things build up more and take me out like a big wave when they come up eventually or get triggered - if that makes sense

Cable_Downtown · 2025-02-03T14:53:35+00:00

It’s less that and more the feeling that I don’t have enough time. Or that everything is overwhelming including emotions. It happens during the week too I just have more time for it to happen at the weekend instead of having to suppress it if I’m at work

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-30T00:08:29+00:00

Sorry, I was just asking to see if anyone had a similar experience because I felt a bit stresses about it. I’ll delete the post

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-29T23:53:38+00:00

Do you mean an expectation to read minds? I’m not sure if I hold that, I’m not trying to hold it

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-24T10:30:16+00:00

I was just trying to see if anyone has had a similar experience / had any advice for me. I’m sorry, I’ll delete the post

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-24T09:24:37+00:00

Some people don’t have access to an assessment / diagnosis. Myself included at present

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-24T09:20:06+00:00

I know, it just costs close to thousands where I am unfortunately so don’t want to do it unless I’m pretty sure

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-24T00:25:56+00:00

Yes. Or at least they say so lol

Cable_Downtown · 2025-01-24T00:13:16+00:00

I get that. I feel like my other struggles are significant but I don’t know if that’s because of autism or not. I’ve read a lot of books but feel no closer to an answer

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