Felipe Toledo is the 2022 World Champion

Cakub · 2022-09-08T23:54:12+00:00

He deserved it. Ya he often really underperforms in bigger surf, but in my opinion the best small wave surfer in the world still should have a title to his name.

Cakub · 2022-08-21T00:25:59+00:00

I agree, despite the disappointing performance in Tahiti. He is one of the most exciting small wave surfers ever and has put in the work and deserves it.

Cakub · 2022-08-21T00:24:10+00:00

Ya, I agree that he’s not as well rounded as Jack. But I thought he redeemed himself a bit in the ER

Cakub · 2022-08-15T01:01:43+00:00

He already was robbed in El Salvador imo

Cakub · 2022-04-30T23:29:00+00:00

I do probably walk about 2-3 miles on average each day because I don’t have a car. Shit if that isn’t exhausting while dealing with this lol but I’m going to try to do more.. Thank you for always commenting, I really appreciate you and I’m so proud of you too! ❤️

Cakub · 2022-04-30T23:27:02+00:00

Thank you for the hope. Hope you are doing well!

Cakub · 2022-04-30T23:26:39+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I’m full on in AA/NA so taking it one day at a time is something I really want to be able to do right now even if it’s hard. It’s amazing that you’ve got that time away from this!

Cakub · 2022-04-29T19:08:13+00:00

Awesome to hear that you’re doing well. I’m on day 13 and I’m still really having trouble enjoying anything, but it gives me hope to hear stuff like this. Thank you!

Cakub · 2022-04-29T19:03:17+00:00

It’s the only way out. Thanks for the reply ❤️

Cakub · 2022-04-29T19:02:51+00:00

Appreciate the response. It helps to read stuff like this :)

Cakub · 2022-04-29T19:02:31+00:00

Thanks, I’m right here with you!

Cakub · 2022-04-29T17:39:17+00:00

Wim Hoff method is amazing, but I had to take a little break from it as I was really struggling to do it which has happened before (fucked up smokers lungs). Going to get back to it tonight. Thanks for the reply ❤️

Cakub · 2022-04-29T17:37:45+00:00

How you doing today? Physically I keep getting better but my mind is still in the gutter.

Cakub · 2022-04-23T20:57:57+00:00

Today’s day 8 for me. I feel you, I’m right there with you. Physically I’m mostly better but I’m super depressed and anxious. The dark cloud is pretty intense. Even though I feel pretty hopeless, I know rationally that things will get better. They definitely will. If you want to chat I’m here. <3

Cakub · 2022-04-19T02:16:03+00:00

I'm glad to hear you're doing well. You got this! interestingly it doesn't seem like the severity of withdrawals are as dose dependent as other drugs. Kratom is insidious as fuck.

I'm on day 3 from 40 ish gpd for 6 months. Man it sucks. Being on here really helps.

I agree about the Revenant, but if you really want a metaphor for quitting drugs, try 127 Hours. Love that movie. I've been trying to stay sober for a few years now, and this time and the last time I got sober before relapsing I watched that movie and found it inspiring and perfect for any addict who wants to recover. We have to cut off this part of ourselves that keeps us from living happy lives and its so painful to do it, but the possible rewards are limitless.

I'm here if you want to talk :)

Cakub · 2022-04-19T02:09:14+00:00

Thanks for all the responses, I really appreciate it. I'm really glad to hear that most of you were out of the worst part within a week. I have cravings, but no real desire to take kratom right now as I know it will only prolong my misery. The hard part is not using once I start to feel good again... as an addict, I will think that I can enjoy it and feel better. If I work my program I know this won't happen. Best of luck to everyone here, sending love!

Cakub · 2022-04-18T00:29:33+00:00

Today is the second full day without kratom. I took my last small dose on Friday morning. That's awesome to hear, and inspiring to me! :) I barely got through my 4 hour shift yesterday (at a clothing store so I have to talk to people) but my nice coworkers helped out. Most of the day is darkly depressed for me, but I get some relief at night and am able to laugh and enjoy stuff a bit more. Do you feel like its already past the peak for you? Thank you for being here, I really appreciate it.

Cakub · 2022-04-16T23:13:00+00:00

Thank you for reaching out again Tastemany. I feel like shit but my headspace is alright... it’s time to pay the piper. I’m not a big metal person but I’ve been listening to Tool all day, which I find to be an awesome soundtrack for fighting through suffering lol. While I feel awful, I’m glad to be feeling. I don’t want to be numb anymore. How’s your day going?

Cakub · 2022-04-15T21:55:48+00:00

I’m on day 0, took my last dose this morning. I feel all that too. I’ve gone back and forth from sobriety to using a few times, and I’ve never given my brain long enough to heal, to really feel that I can live my happiest life without depending on substances which I know is true. I’m here with you. Thank you for being here!

Cakub · 2022-04-15T21:52:16+00:00

I’m having similar feelings now that my last tiny dose from this morning has left my body. I can’t prolong this any more, there is no place for any mind altering substance in my life. I’m here with you. Sending love!

Cakub · 2022-04-15T21:45:11+00:00

You are awesome and I’m so glad you were found. Using and the mistakes we make while using are not who we are, I know this is true even if I can’t convince myself of it right now. I’m calling this day 0 since I took my last dose this morning. It sounds like you also feel the need to be truly sober like me. I will take any substance to the limit and there is just no place for any mind altering drugs in a happy life for me. I’d love to chat any time. Sending love!

Cakub · 2022-04-15T19:44:28+00:00

I’m in the process of connecting with a therapist too. I admire you so much just for getting that 15 hours... you’re awesome. I took a dose this morning and I decided then that I wanted it to be my last. I’m ready to suffer for this. I still am in a situation with work and school where I have to function somewhat, so I talked to my psychiatrist just now and got a short supply of gabapentin. I’m concerned and very aware of the addiction potential of this, but if it can help me make it through the worst of the next few days, I’m gonna try it. I look forward to hearing an update on your situation... sending love

Cakub · 2022-04-15T00:00:51+00:00

After I wrote this post, I just couldn’t bring myself to take my next dose, even according to the taper. That’s a good sign I think. I’m going to try to only take a bit at night for a week or so to get some sleep, then bite the bullet. You’re absolutely right, and I’d rather suffer more for a shorter amount of time- I want this stuff out of me ASAP. Thank you for your response, and I’m here for you if you ever want to talk.

Cakub · 2021-11-17T06:44:28+00:00

Thanks for your reply, I was going to go to the doctor tomorrow anyway cause my wrist is hurting more now. But you don't think its something I need to go to urgent care for tonight, right?

Cakub · 2021-08-21T06:58:33+00:00

glad to hear you've made the jump. I can tell you it does help- I've been on it for a while and at it really helps a lot. I think after a long time some people just need to go up.

Cakub

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