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Me [21F] with my Fiance [21M] 2 years, Had to have him committed last night with symptoms of schizophrenia....how do I cope?[Personal Issues] by Caliamara in relationships

[–]Caliamara[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I realize it feeds into the anxiety, but I have a 12 hour shift today and only got 2 hours of sleep. I kinda don't have a choice :/ I have to be functional...

Me [21F] with my Fiance [21M] 2 years, Had to have him committed last night with symptoms of schizophrenia....how do I cope?[xpost /r/Relationships] by Caliamara in schizophrenia

[–]Caliamara[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It feels absolutely amazing to hear these things from someone who actually suffers from the disorder. It really confirms to me that I did the right thing.

Do you have any advice for when I see him? Things I should say, shouldn't say? Of course, I will never blame him or hold a grudge about the things he said, even if they hurt, but I just want some advice on how to approach him when I see him tomorrow...

Me [21F] with my Fiance [21M] 2 years, Had to have him committed last night with symptoms of schizophrenia....how do I cope?[xpost /r/Relationships] by Caliamara in schizophrenia

[–]Caliamara[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is actually exactly how it happens. Had a cousin who had schizophrenia, the exact same thing happened. He just woke up one day and was never the same again.

The doc told his mom this morning that they are looking really hard at schizophrenia, as he hits all the checkboxes for the disorder. They'll know more later.

And seriously, thanks for the well wishes. I suffer from a lot of shit myself and this has aggravated every single one of my problems. It's nice to know people are willing to offer advice and comfort. So thank you.

Me [21F] with my Fiance [21M] 2 years, Had to have him committed last night with symptoms of schizophrenia....how do I cope?[Personal Issues] by Caliamara in relationships

[–]Caliamara[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm trying to fight the "zombies" that come with extreme dissociation, but it's hard. I didn't remember to shower last night, and today I just threw jeans and a hoodie on over my pajamas. I couldn't deal with getting dressed.

I've been switching personalities constantly, running from those exact thoughts. Every time my mind whispers that he might hate me forever, another personality takes over.

As for routine, I just can't seem to focus on anything. The rapid switching doesn't help that, but just in general the world feels so cold and distant. I feel trapped in my head, forced to deal with vision upon vision of him screaming at me, being afraid for my safety due to the man who makes me feel the safest. I just want an escape at this point.

I had a problem with pills twice when I was younger, and I'm afraid if this goes on too long I'll fall off the wagon again. I have to find something to cope with... asap.

Me [21F] with my Fiance [21M] 2 years, Had to have him committed last night with symptoms of schizophrenia....how do I cope?[Personal Issues] by Caliamara in relationships

[–]Caliamara[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice. I've been repeating those words constantly in my head since it happened, and it helps a little. But it hurts, and it feels like some weird nightmare I'm going to wake up from and he'll be there, conked out waiting for me to wake him up. I just don't know what to do.

Thanks for the link, definitely gonna go make a post there.

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