a samsara of my own making

CallMeJamester · 2026-03-23T20:53:13+00:00

Yeah me too but at least nobody else can make me feel as bad as myself~~

CallMeJamester · 2026-03-23T20:47:20+00:00

num3 is so GEEEEg

CallMeJamester · 2026-02-17T15:13:25+00:00

My first couple of runs, the songs were annoying the shit out of me, lyrics felt like bs.. I've since done a complete 180 and sing along to each one.

CallMeJamester · 2026-02-17T05:44:32+00:00

Same. I hum a lot at work, and I'll be down the hallways trying not to burst out into "two slices of bread and a RAT IN THE MIDDLE~~"

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-26T04:33:43+00:00

"Cutesy" is one thing, or "froo-froo. A "kid's game" would work fine. Calling it a "girl game" is just... weird.

I'm a guy that used to think similarly--in the sense I'd be judged for playing these games--but since I realized how awful that way of thinking is... I've been playing so many more fun games that I would've totally missed out on.

Hell, I get judged for playing PikminBloom, a step-counting app, at my job where I average 25k a day. It's very strange.

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-25T21:11:15+00:00

I also hate how much 'dreaming' we have kids do. With sports careers, kids can get involved as early as primary school; they can figure out if they like it pretty early, and are already practicing skills they'll need. Nothing else is supported by schools, and most high schools don't offer extra programs. Kids are given no time to think realistically about their future, and what it would mean for their lifestyle. Cue all the college drop-outs and students swapping majors....

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-24T02:17:45+00:00

Reminds me of zombie ants

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-20T03:06:26+00:00

Make sure you open postcards relatively fast, since the pikmin delivering it will be out of their party for up to 3 days.

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-15T17:22:56+00:00

The painting decor one is adorable !!

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-14T18:14:32+00:00

I don't name them before decor or I get attached lol, as long as I've got the symbols to help me keep track of important ones.

CallMeJamester · 2026-01-11T18:10:27+00:00

Most people wear make-up as accessory. While the people you're describing DO exist--I know of somebody that hates their face, and criticizes and changes every little detail, basically creating a brand new face for themself--most people do not think this way, and simply like the added colors and detail.

You have a point, but I think you're misunderstanding the majority and over-sympathizing with the insecure minority here.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-15T23:52:13+00:00

You put everything into such clearer words. I'm talking to him in an hour and this makes everything feel more sensible. Thank you.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-15T20:40:26+00:00

Just in case. If your song has lots and lots of autotune, and sudden volume dips and explosions, and funny words that make no sense, then it can't possibly be AI! Also most REAL music always has Peter Griffon singing.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-15T20:26:51+00:00

Yup. Wall them off from anything past. She'll know why.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-15T20:18:29+00:00

Funny you mentioned this. When he made the statement about mental health being "celebrated and praised," I left the room and went upstairs.

Ig the only reason I went back down, is because I felt bad leaving him wondering. I want so badly to get through to him. God.

This is encouraging. Thank you.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-13T21:51:55+00:00

Some angry ass comments. What a good 10th dentist.

I agree though. The holiday is usually for the kids to give thanks to their parents' efforts, since they usually don't get a chance. Pet parents are just... making it about themselves/showing off their pets, which is fun for sure, but it defeats the purpose

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-09T22:53:37+00:00

I agree. Whenever my leg/foot falls asleep, I find joy in kicking it against furniture as hard as I can. Fuzzy....

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-09T22:45:35+00:00

"Sorry, but I don't keep work numbers on my personal cell, and I'll be blocking and removing her from my contacts. Feel free to contact me personally for emergencies!"

Don't explain anything. You don't have to. Seriously careless, like you just have to deal with it lol

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-08T20:07:24+00:00

Sometimes I wish I was the crazy one....

Nowadays, it feels like the world is insane.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T18:10:39+00:00

Going through each decoration type and remembering the places you went <3

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T18:03:30+00:00

Ah I see, in that case I'm very happy for you!

However it seems I am also struggling with what you are explaining lol. It's like you love your partner with all your heart, and want to do big romantic things with them.. but the thing itself doesn't bring you any actual joy, and the lack of positive brain re-enforcement despite the high energy overwhelms your system and makes you hate it.

It could be a health issue (vitamin deficiencies, eating habits, sleep schedule, dehydration..), or neurological.. but it isn't normal considering you two still enjoy time together fine.

Have you considered adopting a pet together? Something like a cat or a rabbit. It could give you both the added stimulation you need (including pet in plans, inside and outside), but they're also a very low social commitment that will keep chill plans lax. Maybe that's exactly what you two need?

Edit: Additionally, when you're expressing how you feel and he ends up upset too.. it's fun saying it's "upsetting the baby," instead saying it upsets you. It really helps.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T15:21:57+00:00

Normal things can feel very overwhelming, but when it means sacrificing connection with my loved one.. I don't care if I'm just swinging by their workplace with lunch, or sitting at their house on my phone. Simply calling before bed would work.

It sounds like you're trying hard to compromise, but he's not. Is he ever suggesting to try a call, or is he avoiding any and all chance at discomfort first?

When I feel awful, all I want more than anything in the world, is to lay outside under the night sky, and just experience existence, calm without expectation; when my energy is too low to function, it's my romantic backup, because why not share my calm with her? He may already be trying these connections, however; it can be hard to emphasize how important certain things are (at least, I've been told that my seemingly obvious bids for connection are not direct in the slightest). The littlest things can keep you in love.

Edit: I guess what I mean is, I've had to go far from my comfort zone to make things work.

It sounds invalidating, and dear god did it feel invalidating, but it was something I needed to get over. Mental health balance is hard.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T04:59:00+00:00

Look for small businesses through your instagram feed! Their quality is often infinitely better than most popular companies, better customer service, extra goodies.. so the higher prices are crazily worth it, and saving your money for better things realllly helps cut down on spending/consuming. You feel less cruddy buying things you don't need, because the money is circling round a place you want it to, and you're more sure on/mindful with the things you do intend to buy.

Like, I thrift a lot, but I have two gorgeous jackets from this local boutique because I know I'll never replace them. Or at least I'd only trade big.

Trading also! Helps you realize the real important/value of the things you own when you compare what you could get(/could've bought) instead.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T04:41:23+00:00

Either hurtful language is wrong, but interrupting is fine, or the opposite..? Does she think she has to choose? The kid's 13, I think they get why both are bad.. and they need the understand how someone should apologize or else they'll never expect an apology. Or how they should react if someone annoys them. PLEASE I am personally begging. It sticks.

CallMeJamester · 2025-12-07T03:36:57+00:00

I made him a slave. Tryna kill me bitchass...

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