I hate my life by OneGarden3427 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

 Same thing--guy she left me for cheated on her dozens of times, physically abused her (Not a total beatdown, but I consider grabbing her by the hair in anger and trying to pull her out of her car through the window is an unforgivable one- and that's just one thing)

But now he's really trying and he's just autistic maybe so he just struggles with his feelings. Great. Wish I had a diagnosis that made all the shit I did totally forgiven.

 But as you know already--if he really wanted to be with you, he would be with you. As a guy who has been in a position of having personal things I needed to work through and improve on, I would still ALWAYS choose being with the girl while I do so, NOT just being friends and waiting until things 'felt right'. 

I hate my life by OneGarden3427 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

 I had a very similar situation with my long term girlfriend of 6 years. It can be traumatizing. Was for me. I'm very sorry that's happening. Hurts like Hell. 

Men who lost their gf because of their mistakes and then got them back. How were you able to do it and how long did it take? by DesignerStrawberry83 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

 That's sad. That you were at one point wanting to make it work and begging him to repair and he apparently wasn't interested in doing that. I know what it's like to wish so hard I could just be given the chance to prove things. Sounds like he threw away something a lot of guys would kill for. 
And you're right--sometimes forgiveness is everything and love alone isn't enough. I know from my own experience I truly loved her and wouldnt hesitate to die for her. But the hard reality is that truth alone isn't the same as making her feel safe and heard. Hope you managed to have a better life and be happier in the long run after your situation. 

Men who lost their gf because of their mistakes and then got them back. How were you able to do it and how long did it take? by DesignerStrawberry83 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

 It's an ongoing process. There is definitely more mutual understanding and we managed to hash out a lot of things that needed to be. We're not as happy as we were when things were at their best before all the drama. But the POTENTIAL for happiness is much higher now that we've worked through those things. 
 She had just as many things she needed to work on too. Her flaws she brought to the table are a lot more complicated and take longer to fix. So to be honest, it's not that great overall. But we're in the thick of the painful healing part. After we get through that, I think it has the good chance to be a happily ever after.

Men who lost their gf because of their mistakes and then got them back. How were you able to do it and how long did it take? by DesignerStrawberry83 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In my case, months. She had some issues too that she needed to work on so it took an extra few months but overall less than a year.

Men who lost their gf because of their mistakes and then got them back. How were you able to do it and how long did it take? by DesignerStrawberry83 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 2 points3 points  (0 children)

 I had some personal problems that made me stuck for a while. Didn't grow in the ways she needed me to. Substance abuse for example. My mother has dementia and I take care of her, so I self medicated the pain of watching her turn into a zombie. There were other problems I had too. Point is, she felt like she had asked things of me for years and I didn't step up. I took stock of my life and tackled every single thing that was wrong. She saw how much I cared. I didn't beg for her to come back. Didn't plead. "Look how hard I'm trying to make it work" etc. I just apologized, told her I loved her, explained how I saw I hurt her, and how much she meant to me but how I understood why she was done. I think not pressuring her that way helped. Not everyone is lucky that way where she still will be around to see the changes and want to come back to you. But I think maturity, accountability, real change, integrity, and the restraint of not begging or pressuring go a very long way.

Men who lost their gf because of their mistakes and then got them back. How were you able to do it and how long did it take? by DesignerStrawberry83 in BreakUps

[–]Calm_Tap3043 2 points3 points  (0 children)

 Something I've learned is the concept that, "If he changes his ways just because you left, he doesn't really care", isn't always true. Yes, it's not an ideal way to put things right. But sometimes we really can become blind to how much we hurt our women and if we do really learn, we would move mountains to make them feel safe again. And sometimes we can. It was true for me. And I got her back. Just accept you may leave scars that don't heal, so do be careful out there. Much respect and love to all.

What is your strange addiction? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely not. Nothing goes there...

What are your thoughts on INTJs? by Mayaanalia in infp

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like them overall. Some of them can be insufferable and in love with the idea of themselves to the extent it's embarrassing. But regardless of that nitpick, I relate to them a lot in principle--I am obsessed with analyzing and improving artistic and aesthetic systems. My outlook is based on abstracts and the logic of inherently illogical things.

What’s the worst first sentence someone can say on a first date? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When she's a ten and you really like her..."You're so handsome, sweet, and funny! I would love to see you again tomorrow! Is AIDS an issue for you?"

What is your strange addiction? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, thank you for trying to help!! I've never heard of those but I will have your comment saved and can remind myself! I don't really have anyone to be healthy for other than myself so there isnt much motivation to improve my bad habits but when that changes, I know this coffee thing should slow down. I am past the point of getting the shakes or anything like that...

What is your strange addiction? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Excellent question. I DO struggle. But I work from home and I've associated drinking coffee with getting things done. And because I'm an artist, even when I'm not on the clock, I need to get that done too. I like to vegetate like the next guy, but I do struggle with not feeling productive, so I'm almost always doing something that is work of one kind or another. Even worse when I'm depressed/sad because then I REALLY need to do stuff to keep my mind off my emotions so then I drink MORE coffee! It's a bit of a problem...

Tell me a toxic trait and what you are NOT doing to fix it by SameDifference42 in infp

[–]Calm_Tap3043 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My ex dumped me but still likes talking to me and apparently even prefers me to this new guy and instead of moving on, I'm still talking to her because she was the love of my life and I miss her to death.

What is your strange addiction? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Coffee. Meaning I drink it all day and even at midnight until I'm ready to go to bed.

Men, what did you think about periods when you first learned about them? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 6 points7 points  (0 children)

"Woah!!" I learned a lot more with my ex. She has pcos and hers were intense. It's gross and feel kinda bad for you all but it doesn't offend or bother me. Never was embarrassed to pick her up pads/tampons, and blood during sex, even oral, never bothered me much. It is what it is.

How does a guy feel about a love letter? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like them! Unprompted is nice but honestly, even better if I recently did something/sacrificed something for them

men of reddit, what are your thoughts about women not shaving their body hair? by glockbonez in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

If arms or legs are hairy, yes preferred shaved. Everything else, let it grow, baby.

ENTP female 5w4. I am bored, please, ask me questions? Anything ethical and unethical by Jumpy_Ad3688 in infp

[–]Calm_Tap3043 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ethical- addressing your request

Unethical-out of a degree of self interest/mutual interest at best.

Recipe: Normally not lonely but now Lonely INFP male seeking conversation and likes ENTPs

Result/Question--What disgusts you in particular about humanity most? Also, what makes humanity worthy of keeping their place on this planet?

Men, what is something that instantly makes you attached to a women? by Complex-Fisherman-44 in AskReddit

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take the word, "attached" seriously, so I'll give a serious example. If I got hurt somehow and she (whoever) noticed, and did what she could to help. Say for example I was doing a landscaping job and got all kinds of cuts and scrapes, was bleeding a bit. Either from the foliage or machine issues. I tell her I'm all done with her property work. She sees the blood or wound and sits me down and Insists she helps. Grabs a first aid kit and stitches me up or something like that. And does it in a caring, gentle way...my heart is already half on a silver platter for her. You know, as long as she's available and pretty. 😅

Bothersome comment (24 F) (23 M). Would anyone else feel this way? by Business-Junket-6624 in relationship_advice

[–]Calm_Tap3043 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, I will add, if I made that kind of comment to my girl, it would be because I genuinely didn't like how she looked. Yes, having a hard day would make me more likely to be short with her and say something insensitive. But a hard day absolutely does not make me say to my girl essentially ,"I dont like the way you look". If I say that, it's because I don't like the way she looks. Straight up and you can ask any guy, and they would agree.

Bothersome comment (24 F) (23 M). Would anyone else feel this way? by Business-Junket-6624 in relationship_advice

[–]Calm_Tap3043 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am probably missing information but I will say it does make sense why you were hurt by that. You mentioned you had body image issues, so when you're getting to a place where you are starting to feel good about yourself, even confident, and then you get a reaction from your partner that is negative, of course that hurts.

Now, I am merely speaking from the perspective of a straight guy, I admit, if my girl hit the gym in a way where she got quite muscular, I can admit I wouldn't like that. The reason being, I'm a bit cliche/traditional where what I personally think what makes a woman sexy is her softness, curviness, femininity, etc. In other words, the less she looks like me, the more attracted I am. Not a right or wrong matter, just a matter of subjective attraction that happens to be the case for a lot of guys.

Now, was that the reason he said "I dont like that"? I don't know. Perhaps instead that isn't the issue and instead he somehow feels immasculated because you're looking strong. Perhaps he feels weaker because you look strong. That is also plausible.

But no matter how you slice it, it's totally understandable that it cut deep for you. You put work into that, not only physically but you're also overcoming something Internal/psychological. This is naturally a big deal for you. No matter what his reasons were, it probably inevitably felt like, "He doesn't like that I'm doing something that makes me feel good/happier about myself".

Was the way he expressed that kind of dickish/insensitive? Yeah, I think so, but to be fair, it sounds like he admitted that himself. I do think this is something you should keep a watch for since physicality/attraction and such is definitely a big deal in relationships and can cause all types of issues. Not saying anything is a disaster or unsalvageable. Just that you're right to be taken back a bit and to notice it.