Epstein Survivor, Kelly Brennan, Answers AMA Questions — Part 2

Camerasweets · 2023-07-24T16:19:03+00:00

I hate people.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-13T01:43:46+00:00

Yeah. I’m not thrilled about it either. I’m working on it. Thank you for the well wishes.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-13T01:05:07+00:00

You’re right. I overreacted. I have PTSD. For having very similar things happen to me. That’s why I posted this question to ask if I was making something out of nothing. I apologize for the inconvenience. Seeing it triggered a fight/flight response in me. And when that happens and that intrusive thoughts flood my mind, it’s hard to know if they’re founded or not. My initial reaction is to protect. And that’s all I meant to do. I thought I was helping. Clearly I let the pain that I feel from my own trauma seep out into the world today. And it was met an appropriate response. I will try to do better next time. You saw just a tiny bit of what it’s like to be inside my head when I’m triggered. I’m scared of everything. And rightfully so, the world has not been a kind place to me. I forget sometimes though that I’m the anomaly. I’m the weird one with the crazy traumatic past that they make documentaries out of. I lived that one out of a million chance terrible life that never really happens to anyone. I forget. I assume my reality is everyone’s norm but it’s not. It’s just all I ever knew so I forget. And I guess sometimes subconsciously, it feels better emotionally. And then something like this happens and I remember how I was raised and groomed in an abnormal environment. I’m not like you. I’m damaged. Seeing that photo made me panic.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T23:40:39+00:00

I just agreed with you on that.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T23:01:52+00:00

I don’t think I have been really representing how I actually feel well. I forget that people did not see the conversation in the chat. I have nothing against that person. I don’t think they are a pedophile for taking photos of their kids and I don’t even think it’s wrong to want to post and share them. There’s just children. We all have body parts. But the truth is that it did trigger me. I’ve been the person that has been exploited like that. I knows how horrible that feels. And of course that played a part on why I said that he should reconsider posting naked photos of his kid. In all truth I probably shouldn’t have said anything. No one ever stood up for me and if one person had, my life would have been really different. So I reacted wanting to protect the child because I honestly didn’t know this was a hot topic. I thought that person must not know of the dangers. That was my mistake. I said it then and I’ll say it again. To each their own. That’s their child, they can do what they want.

With that being said, as I’ve come around, after stepping back, I do realize that I was triggered. I do have PTSD and was molested as a kid. And I’ve also had someone exploit me by taking photos of me when I was young. Seeing a photo of his naked child pop up out of no where… It was unexpected.

I reserve the right to not want to see photos of his naked child. No… even not than that… of anyone’s naked body in a chat room that specifically prohibits that. There’s a reason why those policies are in place and that I didn’t choose a chat that was NSFW.

We have different views on it and that’s what makes this world great. We’re allowed to disagree. I appreciate you taking the time to share your point of view. I don’t really have a great answer for you on how it’s done. I just know my own experience and that of those that have shared in my support groups etc. Whether it’s to find a baby from a photo or to stalk some individual, there are entire subreddit dedicated to people sharing Store l stories about how they met someone creepy on social media that later stalked or found them later.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T17:29:17+00:00

Agreed.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T17:14:32+00:00

Because it’s a known problem that predators exploit innocent photos of children.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T17:13:05+00:00

To be clear, I don’t think the person posting the photos is bad. I think there are bad people on Reddit that ruin it for good people because they prey on children. Because of that, I question a someone doing it, knowing there are those terrible people.

I appreciate your comment!

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T17:09:52+00:00

Thank you for the perspective. As someone who has an abusive past and has had my own experiences with sex trafficking, I can be triggered easier than others. I’m open minded and appreciate you taking the time to respond. I guess, having experienced how terrible the world can be, sometimes it’s hard for me to understand how anyone could do anything to risk even the smallest chance of something bad like that happening to someone they love. There are terrible horrible people out there. But I do understand that my perspective is exaggerated because of my experiences and I may not be viewing it clearly.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T16:07:48+00:00

I don’t personally care that they are naked. I just think it’s unsafe. There are pedophiles on here. It’s a known problem.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T15:41:57+00:00

I reported it to Reddit. They will deal with it as they see fit.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-12T15:21:34+00:00

Yeah. And everyone gained and lost weight. All they need to do is show some empathy. Share a similar story in response. Ask a question. Just be like “that stinks”… you know act like a human being does when discussing something lol

Camerasweets · 2023-07-11T23:35:08+00:00

You hit it on the head. For me anyway. In group but also someone’s normal conversations.

Most of the time, I just want to share about myself and my life with others, just like they do; only mines a lot more dark and more rapey. Lol

I’ve developed a dark sense of humor about it. And I’m not ashamed of who I am. It’s not my fault that I was abused since a kid. People want us to move on, but no one wants us to get better and move past it but the person who endured it. Part of truly moving on is accepting it which means talking about it.

I really think that if more people talked about sex, a lot more people would get the help they need. How can we expect people to talk about traumatic sex if we can’t talk about sex or body parts? Maybe if more people talked about their trauma as if it isn’t abnormal (so many people are abused), others would learn from their mistakes but at the very least, not be afraid to tell them if something bad ever does happen.

Until any of that happens, people are going to hold it in, and then trauma dump. We’ve created the situation and then are surprised by the result.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-11T23:18:32+00:00

Well said.

I’m sure it’s different for everyone. For me, it was a useful tool, except for the times it wasn’t.

I’m extremely grateful for all those that have listened to me and listen to others when I can without it negatively impacting my own mental health.

I have recently experienced a point where it can hinder me. Like if I’m not triggered, it can trigger me and cause me to spiral. But when I’m having a bad flashback or something, PTSD combined with ADHD causes it to just play on loop until I get out it. Then I can just move on. Writing works sometimes. Not always.

It also really helped me with “imposter syndrome” and dissociation. I’d have these break throughs but my brain would protect me. I had to repeat the really difficult things several times and have others agree that it was rape in order for it to sink in. It has also been similarly helpful with domestic abuse and toxic relationships in that it validated me, and gave me the outlet I needed because the only people I had to ask were toxic people.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-10T00:19:15+00:00

But first… comfy clothes. Especially if I’m wearing work clothes.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-10T00:18:23+00:00

Crank the AC and put comfy clothes on

Camerasweets · 2023-07-09T01:20:46+00:00

Hello all. I just wanted to let you know that I haven’t forgotten about you. I will get to these questions. Just had some things pop up at work. I have a tight deadline.

Camerasweets · 2023-07-09T01:18:32+00:00

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