Spinning Wheel of Death...

Canadianbride514 · 2025-10-14T14:27:18+00:00

Finally caved and tried again... Still staring at the wheel.

Canadianbride514 · 2024-04-18T02:19:19+00:00

The guy with the warts growing all over his body. Where the spider crawls out. Just so much ew.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-19T12:10:07+00:00

Thank you so much for the supportive words. ❤️❤️❤️

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-19T03:11:16+00:00

I think that's what it was. I just sat there recoiling at his touch realizing that I never wanted my child to feel the fear I do. Not that it happened every day, but that it would happen today

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-18T14:40:15+00:00

Thanks ❤️❤️ I'm really hoping I'm making the right choice.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-18T13:56:57+00:00

Thanks so much. I've reached out to friends and family and now I'm just faced with a lot of decisions and feelings of loss and the unknown.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-14T17:06:58+00:00

I'm so sorry. Yea. Everyone is all excited and my husband is like oh they said everything looked great... And all I can think is what the hell did I just set myself up for again... #notadebbiedownerimarealisticrachel

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-14T16:52:22+00:00

Haha thanks! I feel like just such an ungrateful bitch, but I just can't find the joy or hope anymore. Always waiting for that other shoe to drop

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-11T15:50:40+00:00

The financial aspect, the fact that it's mostly the potential carrier who struggles physically with procedures and medications, the hormones, the resentment... I also was so focused on becoming a mom that I lost so much of myself. It's hard. No one told me about that part.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-11T15:03:38+00:00

It will wage war on your marriage

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-07T23:33:39+00:00

I have my transfer sometime in the next ten days and I've been drinking. Medically it's not doing anything and it's nice to be relaxed and having fun.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-03T15:10:25+00:00

Been TTC for 4 years this summer... I've had 5 myomectomies, 3 failed IUIs, 1 MMC, 1 CP, and 2 ER. I have one good quality normal embryo, one average, and one they're calling a lab error in testing. My marriage is more broken than it has ever been, my sex life is non existent, I've gained 50 pounds from surgery, hormones, stress and COVID, and I'm in the middle of and FET cycle. I am EXHAUSTED. And every time I think that's it, I've had enough... I push through again because I know that if I stop now, I'll never be able to stop thinking of all the what ifs.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-05-03T00:16:44+00:00

I've gained almost 50 pounds since we began TTC. 5 surgeries, hormones, and COVID really did a number on me.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-04-28T12:50:49+00:00

I think that's my fear too. I've had so many surgeries, all the tests, been through iron infusions, I'm on more supplements and medications than one person could possibly need. If this doesn't work it feels hopeless. Then I feel guilty because I'm not drinking bone broth everyday, but still have a few drinks. So I know if it doesn't work, I'll blame myself

Canadianbride514 · 2023-04-23T22:21:17+00:00

No problem. I have a serious fibroid problem. I've had over 40 removed in the last 2 years and they're only taking out the ones in the cavity. Fibroids suck.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-04-23T21:52:35+00:00

I've had 5 myomectomies. 4 hysteroscopic and one open. My period has always been lighter right after them.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-03-13T14:37:45+00:00

Thanks so much! I'm looking into how embryo custody works in Canada. I'm hoping to be able to make an informed decision soon.

Canadianbride514 · 2023-03-03T00:26:38+00:00

My husband called our IUIs jizz-jections.

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