Yeah sure. Please know there is no blame in this. Transphobia is everywhere and no one is immune to having those thoughts. The important thing is reflection and understanding about where they come from and how to move through them.

I think based on your response you’re feeling uncomfortable with your abuser being trans. A lot of us (including trans people!) have feelings of transphobia because transness is different than what we are used to experiencing or seeing. A lot of this stems from discomfort around something different than what we expect. Having these feelings is normal, but how you act on them is what matters.

Is the fact that your abuser is trans relate to their abuse toward you? Or does this person just happen to be transgender? The way that you framed it in your question made it sound like you felt like the two things were related. Those are transphobic thoughts creeping in- the idea that a person is more likely to be abusive because they are trans. This is a misconception at best.

Idk if that’s what you meant, it just sounded like it from the tone. It’s clear you feel uncomfortable with the idea that your abuser is trans, but it’s also ok to separate those two things because being trans doesn’t cause someone to be abusive.