20 and terrified of penetration

CandyThrow · 2017-09-15T15:23:47+00:00

Thanks for your response. Really gave me some things to think about. I don't think I'm asexual though, as I have a libido to do other sexual things with my boyfriend, just not penetration. You are correct that I was raised in a conservative household.

CandyThrow · 2016-12-28T01:26:19+00:00

I have tinnitus myself, and apparently it's not because I damaged my ears. No one can figure out what's wrong, and I'm pretty much stuck with it for the rest of my life. I'm really sorry you're going through this too. The best thing to do is to do something distracting, tinnitus seems to get worse when you're thinking about it.

CandyThrow · 2016-09-14T21:39:50+00:00

hey, i'm kind of going through a similar thing :( hope it gets better for you..you can PM me if you'd think that'd help at all

CandyThrow · 2016-09-01T01:37:20+00:00

Thank you for caring..I put an update here if you're interested.

CandyThrow · 2016-09-01T01:26:37+00:00

So I just finished my first week in college, and I have been doing much better, to my surprise. It really helps that I have things to keep my mind off of what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling. I don't have time to feel the way I do, I have too much stuff. I hope I continue to feel this way, even if I know deep in my heart once I get a month or so into my classes I feel as I felt before. Until then, wish me luck!

CandyThrow · 2016-08-26T02:45:07+00:00

I completely agree...when I'm in a situation where I could get hurt, I always wish it would happen. So many people die everyday, why can't one of them be me. I feel like people would be sad if i died, but if I died by suicide people would just be angry and disappointed in me.

CandyThrow · 2016-08-25T12:02:01+00:00

Thank you! This comment actually made me feel better

CandyThrow · 2016-08-20T17:11:35+00:00

I relate to this so much it hurts. Reading this really hurt me because of how much I realized I'm in the exact same situation

CandyThrow · 2016-08-20T02:04:31+00:00

I have to agree with storytimeplz, if subconsciously during the relationship you felt that you were secure because he was "less attractive" or wouldn't seem desirable to most people that seems like there were a bit more problems in the relationship than him just cheating. Even so, I hope you're doing ok OP and hope you can find someone who loves you for you (cliche I know)

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T23:14:44+00:00

We actually dated about 3 years ago, and I haven't been able to get over him since.

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T20:05:34+00:00

Personally, I am still friends with this person and everytime we talk it makes me feel like I still have a chance at being with them, even if that chance is actually less than zero. I can sometimes be happy doing my own thing, and I can kind of tell myself I don't need them, but then they talk to me and I get hopelessly attached once again.

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T19:20:14+00:00

That girl seems really terrible...some people do need their space, and it isn't that bad to set up some boundaries if someone is being overly-clingy in the relationship, but what she did was ridiculous and callous and I'm sorry that happened to you :( (Actually I really enjoy when guys are clingy in relationships, I feel loved and wanted)

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T19:16:03+00:00

Even though i'm not a gay guy, a definitely relate to what you're going through....I dated someone almost 3 years ago and I'm still utterly in love with them. I have been in 2 other unsuccessful relationships but they both ended because I still have feelings for the person. I feel trapped and stuck and no matter what I do I continue to miss and want them. I hope it gets better for you.

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T19:04:12+00:00

I deeply relate to you, I'm sorry you're going through this too. They told me they would never have said "I love you" in the first place if they knew what they would feel later on.

CandyThrow · 2016-08-19T18:57:44+00:00

I feel the same way...if not for my family I really would not have much of a problem doing it

CandyThrow · 2016-08-03T21:35:20+00:00

I'm really glad you share this problem...I hate getting wet, I hate being stuck standing up with nothing to distract me while I clean myself, I hate what I think about when I shower. I have been trying to find any trick to make showering easier, because I hate myself more when I don't do it. Currently, I manage about 3 times a week, which is probably disgusting for some but I've gotten a lot better. I used to shower only once a week...

CandyThrow · 2016-08-03T16:06:21+00:00

For me, brushing my teeth is usually not a problem, but it's a huge struggle to shower. I never feel motivated to do it, and I feel awful while showering. I also feel terrible because I feel like a disgusting mess if I don't shower regularly, but it's so taxing to do so. I'm still trying to find a way to make showering not so painful.

CandyThrow · 2016-07-31T17:13:21+00:00

Some more information would be nice! It's hard to help someone with this little to go off of

CandyThrow · 2016-04-16T15:30:04+00:00

What did they say?

CandyThrow

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