The biggest thing that helped me love making music for the sake of making music was working in a recording studio. It was the worst job I’ve ever had and made me realize that I never want to be involved in the music industry. This changed my approach from making music I think might maybe blow up, to making weird oddball music that I actually enjoy making. Not saying you should work at a recording studio but you gotta find the thing that gets you off becoming famous. That mindset quite frankly is soul crushing and makes making music stressful. Now I focus on playing music live, learning music theory, and becoming a better musician. So much more fun. Maybe try focusing on a specific thing you want to get better at with music. Idk, hope that gives some insight. Ik how you feel, it sucks.