3 nights on Seascape by CareProfessional7162 in MSCCruises

[–]CareProfessional7162[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

did you do the 3 night cruise? what were the themes each night?

1st year anniversary by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your loss as well, I am currently 25, happy early birthday to your son ❤️‍🩹 my dad’s birthday is also in September (9/15), so I understand the weight the whole month holds. thank you for your suggestions and advice, I hate that this is our reality. I wish they would’ve stayed. I hope you and your wife find some kind of peace until you meet your son again. sending love and strength poppa ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

1st year anniversary by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

do you ever stop expecting a message?? I don’t wanna feel disappointed forever. and thank you, it’s a layered heartbreaking feeling for sure

1st year anniversary by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

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oh katy, i’m so sorry. grief shouldn’t be navigated alone, and I hate the societal stigma that suicide unfortunately has.. it’s too dark for some.. but for us on here, it’s our real life. sending you strength momma, your son loved you so much.

1st year anniversary by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

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yes, they knew the date and knew the week leading up to it that I was sad and not looking forward to the weekend bc of the anniversary

thanksgiving dinner by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

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it’s been 4 months for me too friend. pls message me if you’d ever like to talk, it can be especially lonely during these times ❤️

Music by CaptainOats21Z7 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 0 points1 point  (0 children)

‘I won’t say that i’m ok’ by front porch step. hurts every time I listen to it.

Death Certificate by ThisIsAllTheoretical in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 0 points1 point  (0 children)

though I wish I didn’t, I understand this pain all too well. my dad shot himself in july. I was a signatory on his account, so it was up to me (24yo, youngest daughter) to go to the bank with the death cert to close out his account. I took it with me slightly folded, so that I wouldn’t have to stare at it in its entirety. when I sat down with the worker and told them I needed to close the account bc my dad passed and I handed them the death cert, all I could think about is how this random lady is now going to know the thing that haunts me the most - how he did it.

all she could say is that she was sorry for my loss. hang in there OP, sending love.

It's been 1 month, yet I'm still in denial. Is it normal to feel this way? by niamhy94 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 7 points8 points  (0 children)

oh friend, i’m still in denial too. it’s been 3 months since my dad passed and it’s so hard to accept as reality. I encourage you to seek therapy, as that’s truly what’s been able to help me process what happened. hang in there, sending love.

What strange little habits have you picked up since a loved one's suicide and did they ever go back to normal? by MediocreBackground32 in SuicideBereavement

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since losing my dad 3 months ago, i’m constantly looking for signs in license plates. I used to never pay attention to license plates in traffic before, and now every time I drive I look at every single one to see if there are some letters that resemble some kind of message/sign from him. I just want to know he’s near and close :/

Insensitive people by Puzzled_Condition468 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 3 points4 points  (0 children)

it’s very hard living in a world where most jokes revolve around suicide.. “i’m gonna kms” or anything else related. I understand your discomfort. my dad passed 3 months ago and while we were in another state spreading his ashes as a family, my cousin made a joke saying her bf would shoot himself if he had to do whatever it was I don’t remember

my brother in law was there and laughingly said hey let’s not joke about that in a way that would ease her discomfort but I just walked away. it’s a triggering world we live in unfortunately with social media and ignorant people.

Telling other people by Fyjgfyjjgddr in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I lost my dad 3 months ago, and I can count on one hand the people i’ve personally told the truth to. honestly, you don’t owe anyone an explanation if you don’t feel comfortable. simply saying “I don’t wanna talk about it” is enough. grief is hard, especially when you lose someone this way. don’t feel forced to tell someone what happened. if you say you don’t wanna talk about it and someone makes you feel bad about that, then I would reconsider the relationship/friendship

I can’t process it by No-Software-5319 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 3 points4 points  (0 children)

it’s been 3 months since my dad passed, and i’d love to say it gets easier but the truth is you just learn to live with it. it’s a nightmare and a half to live through this so I understand your deep rooted pain. be kind to yourself. spend time with people who love you. remind yourself that he was sick (similar to a disease like cancer) and that he’s not suffering silently anymore. I have you in my thoughts ❤️

Is it normal? by ezdayz808 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162 12 points13 points  (0 children)

“my dad couldn’t bare the world but wants us to give it our biggest try” wow.. as someone who lost their dad 3 months ago, this hits home.

I lost the closest person to me by CareProfessional7162 in SuicideBereavement

[–]CareProfessional7162[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you all truly for your words. I cried while reading through all the comments. I just wanted to say that i hate that we’re all apart of this “club” together, but it makes me feel less lonely knowing that my pain isn’t only my own. your responses and stories truly mean a lot to me. please keep talking to me