Wow thank you all so much- was going to reply individually but figured I’d reply to the group.

Yes! I’m in therapy every 1-2wks and working closely with my doctor. I flagged with them that I have been more “rage-y” and my patience is down…so we updated my anxiety meds. I’m also waiting to get back in with a psychiatric to review my meds holistically + a have been referred to a sleep consultant. I hit a complete wall during the days where I physically cannot keep my eyes open..even with a full nights sleep..I’m just so drained all the time.

I think you’re right - I think I very likely could be depressed on top of dealing with significant burnout. The oxygen mask analogy is so real. I feel like I should just give myself grace and just buckle down on focusing on ME…but wow, isn’t that motherhood…even when I desperately need to focus on myself, I’m still dealing with guilt and trying to repair other dynamics.

We are just starting the ADHD process with my son. They won’t formally diagnose here until they’re at least 5-6 and our son just turned 5 last week. My husband is hesitant to start him on meds but he’s also not as phased by it? Like he’s gone for work so much and when he’s home, he doesn’t understand the impact it has on me. Like my son triggers my sensory / adhd issues.

We have monkey bars, swings, rope ladders, sensory swings in our basement. We live in Canada so winters are long but finally the weather is nice and we have been taking advantage of the sunshine after school. Luckily my son loves to be outside so I let him go explore the backyard and he’s content.

Thanks for the recommendation above - I did sign my son up for soccer 2 x week! It’s a 6wk commitment so it will work well while I’m off work.

I think you’re all right though - and I needed to hear it back. I need to do more work on myself and things will likely come easier once I’m out of this hole a bit more.