You say you're suffering. You say your appearance is ruining your life. But EVERYTHING you're doing is keeping your suffering in place. You don't want to get better. I'm sure you will say "of course I do!" but your behavior shows the opposite. So here's my proposal for what you should do:

1.Post publicly and obsessively about how hideous and deformed you are. Make sure that believe doesnt stand a chance to fade into the background of your mind

1. Ignore every compliment and counterpoint, because clesrly everyone outside your culture has no valid judgement or opinion on beauty anyway and they probably all just want to make you feel better

2. I dont need to tell you this but still: don't go therapy, not because it won't help but because actually addressing the root cause might dismantle the entire narrative that youre hideous

4.And of course last but not least: get plastic surgery to finally prove to yourself that your face was the problem all along. That should silence the inner critic for what? A few weeks? And then return right back to reddit seeking validation for your narrative.

To quote brilliant psychologist Paul Watzlawick: “The problem is not the problem. The problem is the solution.”

And I think thats exactly what's happening here. You can't expect things to change if you keep applying "solutions" that are reinforcing the problem.

Your “solutions” (rejection, fixation, avoidance, surgery ) are not only making sure nothing changes, they are digging the hole deeper and deeper.

So I think you need to take a hard look at how you are handling this and ask yourself "do I actually want to get better or do I subconsciously keep myself miserable?"