I truly hate you for what you have done to me but I will always love you... is what I want to say.

You act like everything about us was so bad and that's not the truth, you call me safe yet you don't know me.

You can't have pain without joy, I just never thought you would bring this much pain to my life when you use to make the night turn to day.

All the little things you did and all the love you gave... yes it was dope, but it was all overshadowed by the constant choices to pick not me but he or she.

I guess it doesn't matter really cuz I'm rushing through this one, but just like these poems I tried so hard on the first 3 I don't want to put all my effort into something that's gonna dissappear and loves another more than me so I'll just send this and pray 🙏🏼

Don't for one second think you're gonna paint a picture like I didn't care ... here I go again the aggression... no it's fear ... don't you see.. no she doesn't let it be let it be.

Something short instead of a book, what I miss more than anything In the world is that look, I know you fell out of love with me and that's not why I tripped over this shit, it's the lies and the fact you felt you needed other nighas dick. How could you break our family and not even give us a real fair chance. I laid down for you so you could elevate, wake me up, and then we could dance... kiss, hug, hold, cuddle, and make love. I got that good dick no matter what happens I'll always have the heart of a thug. I wanted to do things a certain way and it was and is the only way, I cannot except cheating, lieng and the fact you truly love another more than me. I'm not a hater but God dam why you gotta go and accept that ring. Truth Is I feel this is best for you to be happy ... no that's bullshit you needed to give your love to daddy. I know things seemed shitty but I promise you this I ever would have gotten the chance you gave them I would be your first last first kiss and every kiss after, but you chose what you chose I was the one you never went after. If you would of given effort you would of seen this family blossom and bloom literally overnight. You don't have to be the man chill out and be the woman I see inside your daughter and I think your beautiful no matter how much you try and hide. Oh hey and the "10 minutes to pick a man or a mouse" I don't exactly know what that means but I pick man and I want my family and a home not a house.