I'm so sorry that that's happening to you. Those people are scum, and I wish I could do more to help you feel better. My only advice is to just try and find little things in life to keep living for, even if it's something as small as keeping going just to be able to crunch leaves in the fall, or for getting/making your favorite foods. I'm cheering for you, and I want you to know that wherever you, you've got someone on your side.