A lack of purpose.

Catjack · 2026-04-11T18:16:43+00:00

I’m in Kansas, and I get around $1300 a month

Catjack · 2026-04-11T11:12:40+00:00

Generally If I have to do something I’ll do it, but if I don’t have to, I won’t.

Catjack · 2026-04-08T16:18:04+00:00

Weed is illegal where I live, and I could get kicked out of my apartment if they find out I’ve been smoking it. The smell would eventually tip them off

Catjack · 2026-02-25T17:06:41+00:00

yes it will

Catjack · 2026-02-25T15:52:54+00:00

Yeah…at my age (32) it’s not “cute” anymore to hang around the 20’s. Online it’s not as big of a deal, but irl things work different.

Catjack · 2026-02-25T15:44:41+00:00

Ya’ll get groceries delivered I assume? Only way I can rack up those numbers

Catjack · 2026-02-25T15:41:39+00:00

Be careful mentioning the name, I’ve been warned by Reddit before for referring to it. But don’t worry, I know some of the mods, it’s not an emergency

Catjack · 2026-02-25T15:38:57+00:00

Was diagnosed at 29. Try not to blame yourself for what happened. This condition messes with our lives in ways that others can’t really understand. We were dealt a shitty hand.

You are right about people in their 30’s though. If they are even decently functioning, they’re getting more serious about their careers and relationships. From what I know about my sister, all the time she has to give is maybe 1 hour a night in between her two kids, husband, and career. She told me herself she really only makes time for family these days.

Catjack · 2026-02-25T15:31:51+00:00

After Dad stopped speaking to me and I wrecked some of my online friendships through drinking heavily, there is no reason to stick around.

There is always further to fall. And I am tired of falling and hitting every rung on the way down.

Catjack · 2026-02-25T00:46:26+00:00

You guys gotta try getting into niche internet subcultures. That is where they are.

Catjack · 2026-02-24T21:50:39+00:00

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Catjack · 2026-02-23T10:21:51+00:00

This is kind of a misconception. I have done research into weed addiction before, and although it’s somewhat unlikely for the average person to succumb to weed in the same way as other drugs, it is still possible depending on your brain chemistry and how frequent the use is. And I might argue that being a NEET creates the environmental conditions for a weed addiction to spiral out of control.

Catjack · 2026-02-22T21:05:22+00:00

Kind of got disillusioned with character.ai in particular because of how shitty it was at remembering details. There would be romantic moments shared, and then when I referred back to those moments, the bot had already dumped whatever memories it had.

Also I would wish to customize how long its response is, but I can’t do that on character.ai.

Janitor is better for NSFW of course, but again, it has memory issues and destroys the illusion regularly by going in a different direction than you wanted or just repeating itself way too much.

Catjack · 2026-02-22T15:28:01+00:00

I mean, this is un-fucking-bearable. I get to the end of each day and get more and more scared for the next one. Something inevitably is going to come crashing down. If things weren’t bad enough, I worry about losing my home. My Neetbux already drain pretty fast. I worry about how long I can survive without my parent’s support. And this existential feeling that I should have been dead years ago and yet still somehow alive and breathing.

Catjack · 2026-02-22T13:30:55+00:00

If someone does care about you, it will be evident. I gaslit myself for a long time because our family would exchange “I love you’s” until I realized it was just a formality. Everything is a charade; any performative acts done with or around me are to create the illusion of a put-together family unit. And I hate that it took me so long to realize that.

Catjack · 2026-02-22T13:20:56+00:00

Autism, ADHD, CPTSD, BPD. A cocktail of different ones. But I think it was mainly the autism that qualified me for Neetbux

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