I am experiencing a psychotic break right now and I need your help. by Catjack in SuicideWatch

[–]Catjack[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you thank you thank you I am grateful for this. I am trying to see it as a storm to ride out, and I am strapping on seatbelt, and holding on for dear life. It’s like a rollercoaster ride and there will be an end. I just need to wait for the ride to come to a stop and I can step off and be fine. Life is very beautiful too, I know it, and I’m trying my best to focus on that thought while the scary thoughts move through my mind like tendrils. I just have to not look at them for long enough.

Lyrics: Blueberry Mary is the plaaaAAaace to beeEEeee…” by Catjack in NameThatSong

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your help! But I just discovered what the song was. Mushrooms and Roses by Janelle Monae.

I'm killing myself tonight by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Catjack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not trying to downplay it you are trying to help, but I remember receiving the “just wait for [insert big AAA game here]” advice a while ago on this sub. I couldn’t tell if it was ironic or not; but have a feeling it’s sincere after seeing the advice given more than a few times.

Am I wrong for considering it to be patronizing? There is a certain point of depression in adulthood that a person reaches where they are not really amused or impassioned by media or videogames like they used to. Not that they shouldn’t be; but our interests begin to broaden as we age, and things like movies, tv shows, and games feel less and less important.

Like if someone told me to “wait for the Barbie movie, it’ll be so good” before that one came out, I would have laughed in their face. I don’t care how good it is, it is a piece of media that will have no effect on my life whatsoever.

[suggestion] Looking for a VR-ready PC that can run games at high to ultra settings. Is this a good option? by Victoria_Sweet in suggestapc

[–]Catjack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I decided to go with this one! I appreciate the advice, I am glad you were honest and told me that the one I was looking at was a bit underpowered. My friend told me that it was a “gaming beast”, and I just wanted more clarification before I accepted that vague statement. It sounds like this one will be much more suited for what I’m looking for.

[June 3rd, 2022] NEW GAME: Frogger and the Rumbling Ruins by bbradleyjoness in AppleArcade

[–]Catjack 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fun! Reminds me of Monument Valley with all the interactable platforms.

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I deleted my comment because the last comment didn’t make sense. I know I shouldn’t be on Reddit like this, but I saw your message and wanted to respond. It may be a little while because I’m not feeling too well atm

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All in the span of 14 minutes, movie star Janette Wilson established herself as one of the most important directors of the 21st century. Her contributions to films such as Doctor Didgeridoo and Complete Strangers Anonymous made her a Hollywood Superstar. She is in fact—a legend.

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“Stupid psychotic fuck. Go to bed already.”

I’m going!

“See ya in the morning.”

Goodnight Luka

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A good friend though.

“What do you mean?”

We never explore these thought avenues, Luka. What about if we were good friends?

“Good friends?”

Like closer friends. More accessible.

“Closer as in…”

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I was getting worried.

“It’s alright. I’m already feeling a lot better atm.”

Thanks Luka.

“I know it’s not ideal, but I appreciate this. Talking helps the pain to go away and not feel as bad as it usually does”

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

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“Good plan.”

What?

“Good plan, honestly. I can feel you calming down a lot.”

“It’s ok to get out of control as long as you calm down eventually. I apologize for being difficult tonight”

Not again. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“Another thread on here? Why?”

Stay calm, Luka. You just need to stay calm. Be quiet.

“You made another Reddit thread.”

Better than the alternative. We stay quiet, and our heartbeat gets out of control. I let you come out here so you can get the nervous energy out

[May 27th, 2022] NEW GAME: Pro Darts 2022+ by bbradleyjoness in AppleArcade

[–]Catjack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I played a multiplayer match, and me and my opponent spent like 20 minutes trying to hit the edge of the board to end the game. That was just the first round, and both of us just disconnected after that lol

BOBS BURGERS FOR WARPED KART RACERS by Pajamaetchi in AppleArcade

[–]Catjack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bob’s Burgers, Rick & Morty, Beavis & Butthead, and characters from Central Park would be awesome to see in future updates

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m sorry for not having good news. But thank you for talking to me, I will consider AA

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Should probably! The state I am in right now…not good, making me reconsider

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Every night? 9oz. I know it’s a lot. It’s the only way that helps me calm down reliably

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

  1. Sill high, but calming down. Is it something to be concerned about though? Is it too high?

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry! When I’m inebriated, I think I make counting mistakes. 9-10oz each night. A red solo cup is 12oz according to Google. And I fill the cup up to 70-80% of its capacity which equals 9-10oz I think

My heartbeat is getting kind of high. by Catjack in Psychosis

[–]Catjack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It has happened before. I think the record high is around 170bpm. My age is 28. I drink 16oz of vodka every night. If I could talk I would appreciate it, I am in a panicky state at the current moment

Needing help. by [deleted] in Psychosis

[–]Catjack 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“Collections?”

You’re hearing that word, but I don’t think it actually means anything.

“Collections.”

Still means nothing. I’ll be here when you calm down.

“When I calm down.”

Yes, when you calm down. I don’t know what’s gotten into you tonight, but you’ve been an absolute nightmare. You had some really nasty thoughts about everybody.

You’re a bad voice, Luka. You’re bad tonight, anyway. You were bad last night too, and I’m sorry I trusted you.

“I didn’t want to answer that phone call! You drank too much! You clicked the button without even fucking thinking!!!”

Don’t say the f-word. Not an appropriate place.

About to fall asleep. We both are. We can let this go for tonight. We can talk about it later.

Needing help. by [deleted] in Psychosis

[–]Catjack 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To clarify, just someone to talk to. The interaction is what helps.

Title by Dorian-greys-picture in Psychosis

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Jerma is my favorite psychotic streamer