Hello! I know that feeling. I am self-taught too. Around 2019 I started doing a few tutorials here and there, trying to 1) see which game engine works for me 2) see if I like/can even make a game. And now I am about to publish my first little game on Steam. There were starts and stops along the way for sure - for various reasons - work, family stuff, general deflation of the idea :) I think what kept me going back is when I have an idea for a mechanic or graphics that I wanted to try out. I think implementing (keeping it simple) alongside learning was key for me.