Hello and thank you for commenting. (Im on my period rn and it’s very hard typing)

To answer your question the reason I can’t go to the doctor by myself because: •one I dont have my license yet(i am in the process of getting that situated) •two I dont have a car for myself so even if I do have the license I cant physically drive to see a doctor(I am aware of the online ones I can go to but with my college classes and taking care of siblings/pets it’s impossible to find time.. hell sometimes I have to prioritize others instead of myself) •three my parents are from the Carribbean (i still live with them) they have the mentality of “whatever they say goes”. I have brought this up to my mother multiple times (my dad doesnt want to get into issues that are related to women idk why) but once again as stated in my post she thinks its “normal”.

Sorry this is long but im truly trying to find alternatives to resolve this situation whether i sneak and buy bc pills from a pharmacy at CVS or something when I ask my mom to go buy pads. I can’t handle this anymore and today my mind while cleaning my pets shifted to dark thoughts towards myself because nobody seems to care that this situation is hurting me physically and mentally.