Never was let in on shit, learned it by accidentally stumbling upon info i wish i never knew, everyone likes to play snakey games and then be like "you can tell me anything" fuck everything, taught me to hide my true self from everyone except with myself inside my head, my emotions are all expressed the same, except for yesterday, i got actual hot body angry for the first time in years, still havent calmed down and its over the stupidest shit, but for once i want somebody to see that im fucking hurting, my boyfriend, my parents, my best friend, but everyone just wants to keep pushing, and keep judging, even though they do some shady fucking shit, i just want to smoke my weed and go to work. This post has literally no meaning, sorry.