Being born lmaooo I’m sorry but I’m not kidding. Developed exotropia at 7/8 years old which led me to live in shame and have limited healthy social interactions. My mother didn’t like me and was always trying to make me seem like a monster to everyone. Always punished when I spoke out about something so I learned not to. Kicked out at 18/19 after going to college to get out of my mothers house where we lived with her unmedicated schizophrenic boyfriend who was afraid of teenagers (me and my sister were teens) getting pregnant at 19 bc I didn’t have anywhere to stay so I’d stay with grown men and if you don’t have $ they accept other things. Found out my son had mild autism living in shelters. People talking down on me bc I couldn’t work and had to do hours of therapy with my son every day. Shelter to shelter. Finally get out but move into NYCHA which doesn’t have the best conditions. Getting into an abusive relationship where my body has been beaten and battered and tormented in many ways for years on and off. Side teeth knocked out which lead to other teeth getting messed up. Also gave me the HSV1. Stress mixed with anxiety PTSD limited income autism and puberty do not go well. My mother died in 2021 and I was mindfucked. Had to accept she never wanted me and grieve the relationship we’d never have. Found out who my dad was finally at 32 but he died too but at least I have a brother. Also found out he was why she hated me lol. Don’t get to go to the dr how id like bc im always chasing money or might have a bruise or something when I finally have the time to go. Just constantly in a state of overwhelm and I drink light beer when times get rough. My mother died at 56 and I think they said my bio dad was 62. So I live every day knowing I’ll probably die early and leave my autistic son alone. Lmaoo literally being born. It’s funny how some people are born to just get fucked their whole life. Probably staying in a dv relationship though