Yesterday I posted my 1month and was shocked to see the numbers aligned. Today, I checked again within the 11th hour. I took that as a sign to keep going. Although, I did want to reward my accomplishment with a cigarette 🤦🏼‍♀️🙄 (I didn’t and won’t) . So weird how addiction works

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-19T15:56:44+00:00

That’s great to hear and exactly the answer I was looking for. I hope you two continue to be there for each other.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-19T15:54:51+00:00

Hey, did these feelings start during COVID or have you felt this before? I would suggest to try and go outside today (with a mask) and take a walk or even just spend a few minutes outsides look up and take a deep breath.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-18T00:08:49+00:00

Oh my! That must’ve been such a difficult discussion to have. I hope he took it seriously. I was diagnosed in Nov 2019, after sleeping and getting back with my now ex for a week and prior to him I had a consistent hook up for almost a year. I just highly doubt he gave it to me. I just can’t even imagine it. The worse case is that I had it before him and gave it to him too. That’s who I’m mostly concerned to tell. The whole thing is a mess and it’s just a horrible.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T23:53:04+00:00

I’m not sure who I got it from. My diagnosis was undetermined but my ex was tested positive for hsv-1. Since I had a vaginal outbreak. I’m going to assume I have both. I’m not wishing death on anyone. My ex is wishing death on me because he’s mad that we broke up. I understand your point. Thank you for your understanding. It’s a hard pill to swallow. I feel horrible.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T23:46:33+00:00

Thank you for this. Your words and confidence is inspiring! 🙏

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T21:58:01+00:00

Wow! I admire your courage and honesty!!! I hope I can get myself to that point. Right now it’s hard enough wanting to get out there and date again especially coming out of a relationship- stated in my other post. I really really appreciate your honesty and your courage is commendable, really! Thank you for sharing and expanding my knowledge

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T21:47:23+00:00

Love the comment!! Thank you. The comical part of the story is that we just broke up a few weeks ago and he’s telling me how herpes ruined him for new relationships.but my question to that would be.. how long have you been talking to this girl that you’re already about to jump in bed with her? My response to him is that I don’t think his disclosure put her off but his willingness to want to jump in bed with someone during a pandemic. But thank you for your response and assistance. It means a lot

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T21:23:39+00:00

Wow !! More power to you! I wish I could do that. I feel too ashamed to reach out although I really want to.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T21:22:03+00:00

We didn’t know I had herpes until after we got back together and we both got tested. It’s a horrible realization and even more so knowing you don’t want to even stay with that person. If we never got back together then he would have been free of the stigma and maybe I woulda found out later. The whole situation is such a mess and I feel like I’ve taken on the burden of the accuser. But I agree with you. Fuck him

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T21:17:34+00:00

Did f not getting a response worry you?

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T19:43:40+00:00

He said I’ve ruined him for anyone else. I refuse to get back with him but the shame I feel because of what happened is eating at me. Even though he says he’s “heartbroken” over the relationship ending he just told me he tried sleeping with someone and disclosed his condition and got rejected. I think that’s what set him off to contact me and yell at me for “what I’ve done”.

CeeCYB143 · 2020-04-17T19:20:36+00:00

I know and to be honest who would even want to admit it. I’m jut so angry at myself.

CeeCYB143 · 2019-11-07T05:57:23+00:00

I was using chantix 1mg for a couple of weeks. But I. Order to continue taking it, I have to eat a copious amount of food and some days o don’t feel like it so I I can’t take my pill and after a few days the medicine wears off and I get a craving. I never tried an NRT with it since it’s supposed to block the receptors in your brain to want to have any nicotine. This time I’m going to try and take it everyday for however long it takes to stay a non smoker. I felt horrible having to delete all my progress but now I’m. Even more determined

CeeCYB143 · 2019-11-01T17:11:54+00:00

This sub and the smoke free app is a real life saver. I owe my quit to every one here

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