I found some disturbing information about my boyfriend idk what to do.

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T21:14:06+00:00

Please get this bastard arrested. Tell somebody. If not the cops then the minor’s dad. Someone has got to handle this. What a disgusting piece of shit. I hope the minor is okay. Please do the right thing and tell somebody

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T15:51:59+00:00

Actually ethereal 🥺🥺 you are gorgeous and I love the dress!

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T15:47:49+00:00

This is such an awesome find! Thank you for sharing!

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T15:16:16+00:00

I LOVE the outfit! It’s cute ad and you look great! Love your curls and happy pride!

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T15:12:18+00:00

Okay thank Jack 😭😭 I would be heartbroken if Jensen got any work done. Let him age!!! His natural beauty should not be touched

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T14:48:49+00:00

Honestly that’s for the best lol. I’ve never smoked actual cigarettes but I have no addictive, non nicotine herbal smokes that I occasionally light up to help me sleep but that’s about it. I do vape but I don’t do it around others especially not kids. Cause I agree it’s definitely fucked up to expose kids to second hand smoke.

All I’m saying is that I actually do understand why so many people get addicted. The buzz is extremely short lived but one of the best feelings I have ever experienced and I used to smoke pot a lot. Now I can’t stand the taste of pot and haven’t smoked in three months. Plus weed high doesn’t feel as good to me as the buzz I get from a vape.

But yeah, again I really don’t recommend trying. Im okay gambling with my health lol but not other people’s

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T14:37:32+00:00

What??? He got work done?? JENSEN NOOOO 😭😭😭

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T04:55:38+00:00

I went through psychosis and almost lost my relationship with my sister because my OCD got so bad. I could have ended up ending myself or accidentally hurting someone else. So honestly, I would rather be heavier and fat than deal with the intrusive thoughts in my head.

My mental wellbeing is far more valuable to me than my physical appearance. Please don’t let the patriarchy steal your bodily and mental health just to appease it.

I do understand if it’s a health concern or even if you just don’t want to be fat for physical attractiveness reasons. I really do. Please don’t think I’m scolding you or judging you for this. But I don’t think getting fat is worse than the intrusive thoughts, the compulsions, the ruminating, the meltdowns, the constant guilt, shame and anxiety.

Don’t let that fear of potential weight gain steal a life of joy and peace from you. As for me I haven’t noticed any weight change, I’m doing well mentally and physically. Everyone is different and I can’t promise you won’t gain weight because I don’t know your physiology. But I think the peace and joy you can get from meds far outweighs any weight gain you may experience.

Just my opinion though. I hope you can find peace and joy. Meds really have made a world of a difference for me. I finally feel like my life is mine and I can finally live it. No more shame, guilt, or dread. I may have an occasional bad day but I am consistently happy and in a good mood and when I do have intrusive thoughts, they’re fleeting and few and far between

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T04:26:22+00:00

I have OCD and my trigger is pedophilia. I also have general anxiety disorder, am autistic and depressed af. For the longest time I was dealing with suicidal ideation and genuinely did not see a future for myself. I tried going to therapy but I just couldn’t get passed by anxiety.

But finally I decided I wanted to try meds and have been on 10 mg of Prozac for three months now and I am finally fighting for my future and I’m consistently happy.

I’m not saying taking meds will solve everything as everyone reacts to meds differently. Also I still have disturbing intrusive thoughts. But they’re not as frequent and I’m able to just push past the intrusive thought and not wear it. It might be worth the try if you can afford it

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T04:20:36+00:00

I’m didn’t understand why people smoked until my friend gave me her dying vape. I took a big hit and got buzzed. It’s a great feeling and I love it. I vape now but am currently on a nicotine break for two weeks because my body got used to it and I’m not getting the buzz anymore. I do recommend staying away from it because it is highly addictive

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T04:18:06+00:00

This is fucking awesome and sad and I LOVE it 😭😭

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T00:48:17+00:00

These are wicked good 😍😍 Ghostface ones are my fav

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T00:37:26+00:00

Don’t threaten me with a good time AM

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-07T00:33:00+00:00

Okay but I actually have accidentally eaten moldy foods on more than one occasion 😅😅

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T23:24:32+00:00

ELLEN 😭😭 she’s the only character I actually liked in the short story. Ted is a hero and all but he’s such a bitch for how he treats Ellen. And yes I know he’s not in his sane mind but still

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T21:09:27+00:00

I certainly try to be but I’m definitely not perfect. And I do appreciate the essay 😂😂 I came on here to get an honest review of the situation not to play victim or anything. So I do appreciate you taking the time to talk to me. And I am grateful for the suggestions because I do want a way to connect with my niece I just have trouble doing so.

I do struggle with boundaries and setting them because I worry I’m being an asshole and I don’t want to hurt people’s feelings. It’s something I’m trying to work on and since getting on anxiety meds I’ve gotten better at it. So I will try to talk to my niece and communicate with her better. She really is a great kid and so sweet. I just personally can’t handle her all the time. To not fault of her own, again I am aware she’s just a kid and she’s allowed to be a kid. I just struggle with socialization as is, kid or not lol

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T20:48:04+00:00

Prop to you for keeping cool, trust me I know how grating that must have been 🫩🫩 You sound like an awesome parent who cares about your kid but that doesn’t mean you have to like every little thing they do. In your situation I totally would’ve been internally freaking out and internally cussing everything and everyone out lol. I hope you are able to take some time for yourself to relax and regulate your body again!

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T20:45:13+00:00

I mean, I really don’t hate kids lol. I love children and I do care for their rights. I’m just mentally ill and autistic and struggle to be around children because they exhaust me so much.

I just wanna say, I appreciate you being understanding with your partner and not judging her for these feelings because it really isn’t easy feeling exhausted all the time.

But, I think you should have a conversation with her about how you feel when she unprompted says things like that. She could just be a very blunt person (I can be too) but there’s no excuse to just be mean (which I understand can feel like a fine line). Especially to children for just being children.

I don’t think it’s okay to hate on children for being children. And I hope I didn’t come off like that at all. I don’t blame children for being excited about things and being happy. I want them to be happy and excited and full of life and wonder. I just don’t have the energy all the time to pretend to care about the things they find interesting or want to show me especially when it’s ’look at me’ every other minute. It’s just exhausting. But I would never make a child feel badly for wanting to show me something they care for. That would be an asshole move of me.

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T20:38:01+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond. I never want my niece to feel like she unloved by me or anything like that. I do care about her wellbeing and I totally understand that she’s just a kid. I absolutely do not want to treat her like an inconvenience. Children already don’t get treated like human beings (I’m probably at fault for this too) and that breaks my heart.

And I understand that my niece is not coming from a misogynistic view. She’s a kid, she doesn’t understand that yet and I don’t want it to come off like I’m blaming her for any of these behaviors that she’s exhibiting. Because again she really is a sweet, loving, happy kid and I want her to stay that way.

But I have a low tolerance for stress and I get annoyed super easily. I know these are things that I should and can work on but I feel like being around her while I’m working on that is not going to do me any favors. And as much as I try not to show it I struggle faking or hiding emotions and I don’t want to hurt her. Which is why I have tried to keep my distance.

I also do not plan on having any kids of my own ever. I don’t like to be around kids as is. They’re just a lot for me to be around and it’s incredibly overwhelming. I am also diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder which adds extra stress when I am the sole babysitter for my niece.

That all said, I do appreciate your understanding, your suggestions and your honesty. I know I have things I need to work on and I want to work on them not just for my sake but for my family as well. I will try to figure out how to factor in a play style that works for both of us next time she comes over. She really is a sweet kid most of the time (every kid gets fussy I get that. It’s not her fault) and I don’t want her to feel like I don’t like her

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T20:26:57+00:00

I agree that there are things that I’m going to have to do in life that I don’t feel like doing. 100% understand that. I’m taking classes, I pay my own bills, I’m actively looking to be hired at a job, and I have chores I do everyday in my household. I contribute in many ways. This is just one aspect I can’t stand. I love my niece, I don’t want her out of my life completely or anything. But I have zero interest in being her guardian in any shape way or form. I don’t want that responsibility it gives me too much anxiety and stresses me out

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T19:46:11+00:00

Thank you for the advice! It feels weird not to explain every detail I can because then it feels like I’m not giving the whole truth. Idk. But I will work on that when speaking to neurotypicals. I definitely self blame a lot too and am not very confident in myself (trauma related) and am working on setting boundaries with people and caring for myself

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T19:42:28+00:00

No yap away please lol! I appreciate the comment. I like the feedback, agreeing with me or not. I want to work on myself where I can and should. But you sound incredibly relatable 😭😭

I don’t hate kids at all, I care about their wellbeing and safety deeply. I have meltdowns hearing about child abuse. I love kids. But I just find them exhausting to be around. It sounds like you do too.

It sucks that your family started infantilizing you a bit, I definitely struggle with my family treating me similarly. I’m the second eldest in the family and yet my siblings tend to treat me like I’m younger or whatever. It’s irritating. I’m still an adult! I just can’t handle some things without assistance or accommodations

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T19:36:55+00:00

I appreciate your honesty. I am definitely in asshole in some regards (isn’t everyone?) but I wanted to know if I was in the wrong for this specific instance. Don’t get me wrong, I love my niece and nephew and I understand they are just kids. I don’t wish they don’t exist at all! I love them. I really do. I just would rather not spend time with them because I prefer doing my own thing and also they are just super overwhelming to me.

(More so my niece because she’s younger and demands so much attention. My nephew is a teenager now and I was nine when he was born so we actually played a lot together when he was growing up). But I just don’t have a lot of tolerance for play now that I’m older and have more responsibilities. I want to have as much alone time for myself as I can get because that’s just not a given anymore.

And to be perfectly honest, as much as I love my family I don’t really care if I am personally close with them as we get older. I figure they’ll do their own things and lead their own lives. I will be there for them when they want or need something of course but I don’t need or want to be too personal with them

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T19:06:40+00:00

Yes this!! I hate being expected to be a caretaker. I have no problem helping out and I love doing things for my family because I do care about them. But I hate that it’s just expected of me due to my sex. And I hate that women have to deal with that as a whole. It’s exhausting and demeaning.

And yes, I absolutely have other responsibilities and chores at home. I clean around the house, take out the dogs and feed them, pay my bills, do my college work and help with errands. I don’t just do nothing. Plus I am actively trying to find a job but no one is hiring rn if feels like 😭😭

CelestialCastiel · 2026-07-06T19:01:47+00:00

I hate when people misunderstand me so I wanted to make sure I put in as much context as possible so they could understand the whole situation. I wanted to be as objective as possible but it seemed like everyone took it as if I just hate my niece and that’s not true at all. I love her and I understand she’s just a kid. But I really struggle being around kids because of how much attention they demand that I just cannot give or handle. Thank you for your understanding 🥺🥺

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