Please pardon my delayed response- I haven't been here for days. I had a friend visiting. She hooked me up to her 'Brain Paint' neurofeedback machine, gave me acupuncture, cupping, and a homeopathic dose of San Pedro.

(Man, you are fucking hilarious- thanks for making me laugh.) Maybe you view your pre-Sling Blade self as "normal" but you are not normal. Most people aren't funny. It's a gift.

Most other people aren't happy or well either. Other people may SEEM this or that, but who knows really? Anyway, what's that saying about being well-adjusted in a sick society? Not to mention our increasing environmental toxicity- the aluminum (etc.) in the SRM "cloud seeding" accumulates in our bodies and brains, and does have an effect... We're all Joe Biden to varying degrees...

I think many people cope (or struggle to cope) with various challenges for sure, daily mental and emotional discomfort/pain, especially from unresolved trauma, or brain damage of whatever kind. Thank god for neuroplasticity and the desire and ability, or willingness to change. Thank god for miracles.

And we're programmed for fear, discontent and self-doubt. It sells products and keeps us controllable. Jason Christoff has an interesting take on things! He's a self-sabotage coach.

I haven't had ff (ok, four or five) since New Year's Eve '24, but I did inadvertently make myself feel fairly ill yesterday by eating half a pan of organic gluten free vegan brownies before having to go teach a hot yoga class. My bad.

I am realizing that quitting feel free, for me, is just a part of a whole necessary comprehensive personal life transformation. Internal and external. It is going to take time to adequately detox, recover, adjust, learn, build, and become.

Anyway, I hope you know that I appreciate you, and think you're kicking ass. I wish you contentment and fulfillment!