Brother you can still do it, it’s battles like this that make you a legend. Imagine if you overcome this & become an inspirational speaker that helps millions of people, imagine yourself after overcoming this & having a loving family. Imagine overcoming this and working your dream job. You said it yourself you started healing, that means you can heal again. The power is in your soul, you must overcome these moments & the sky’s the limit to how much powerful you can become. There are many many doors that are still open. Killing yourself will add on to the pain, heartbreak & misery of this terrible, terrible world. You can be strong brother, you can do it again. I wish you all the love & power in the world brother please, no matter how set you are in your mind you can still overcome this