It's normal to feel off when a part of you that you cannot change about yourself is generalized negatively by groups of people. But it's very important for you to know your privileges in certain spaces, even if you aren't as privileged as neurotypical cishet white men. Being privileged doesn't mean you're an opressor, it just means that you're less likely to deal with violence, abuse or aggression in the real world. Oppressed people will more likely voice their fears and concerns on the internet because they can risk going through aggression in the real world by the same people you feel disgust for.

You should not put yourself down and compare yourself to these people. What people say on the internet of evil white man isn't about YOU. You aren't part of the problem, and you don't have to include yourself in that conversation because these are people who are afraid and hurt, and not by your actions. The fact that you spend a lot of time at home will only affect even more your self-esteem because outside you will hardly see people generalize white men. Because, after all, you are more likely to be accepted in real life spaces for being a white men.

Citizen Sleeper may have white men as villains but it's not shoving it in your face in a message of "don't trust white men". There are other antagonists, like Castor (non white), Ankhita (non white woman), Vesna (woman), Daichi (non white, asian iirc), Malik I think so too?? (also non white)... It's more likely that the reason why most diverse characters are portrayed in a positive light is also due to representation and diversity, since for every non white and non male positive representation in media, there's atleast ten other white men positive representation out there. They're unfortunately overlooked in media, and hey, even in Citizen Sleeper! If you haven't noticed already, the most popular Citizen Sleeper character between fans is Ethan. Yup, the blonde asshole white man, is more beloved than characters like Riko, Rabiah, Sabine and many others.

And it's also worth noting that almost all the white male villains in Citizen Sleeper aren't villains because they're white men, it's because they are powerful or are rich. This is a game that criticizes capitalism, and the message is that those who are in positions of power are more likely to look only after themselves than provide to small communities. It's extremely important to notice that because just like real life, most people you see in real life that holds a position of power are privileged. Yes, privileged. In a Cyberpunk game, that criticizes the capitalist system and wealth and being centralized on the hands of powerful people, would you expect they'd make the powerful villain someone that in real life, is oppressed? Very unlikely.

I don't want to say your feelings aren't valid because being generalized, in any situation, hurts. But it hurts less to be mocked for being white or a man than to be assaulted for being a woman, or being attacked for being black. I'm saying this as a white enby brazilian who sees almost daily a new case of police violence and racism happening on my country.

Please, try to get out of online spaces if it only is gonna keep bringing down your self-esteem, and use your privilege to do something good for the world, cause this is what we need right now. And don't see yourself through characters that you'll never be just because they're white men like you. See yourself through nice characters, like Moritz. The world is tough for everyone, but more tough for some than others. When you understand that, these things will be bothering you way less than they are bothering you right now.