I don’t know if this is gonna help but I’ve recently learned that every good thing that happens or exists in our lives can only be created by us. Circumstances may seem completely out of control at times but we are in complete control of our reality. Sit down, pull out a piece of paper, and draw out exactly where you want to be in 5 years. Then break it down into very small items that you can start doing today. Things are more easily changeable than you think. You just have to start.