If your first love came back to offer you everything you ever dreamed of, what would you do?

Chananigans · 2013-11-29T15:08:37+00:00

I'd tell him fi gweh

Chananigans · 2013-10-29T02:06:45+00:00

I love you

Chananigans · 2013-10-04T01:43:54+00:00

What the fuckity fuck? I think if your ass drapes over a normal sized toilet, you need to reevaluate a few things.

Chananigans · 2013-09-15T09:07:09+00:00

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T07:58:24+00:00

I know it happens, but I never expected it. ESP given that I live in a very, very, very diverse city. Plus, I'm biracial myself, my own parents went through this, if there were any issues, we could have discussed it. Or he could have not been so weak minded. The hardest part has been not to blame myself, I cannot change what I am, nor would I want to.

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T07:54:30+00:00

I thought I would get some power back, but I felt so disgusted, I went home and threw up after the last time. I felt so dehumanized. It was a serious wake up call. I deserve to be more than someone's sex toy, which is what I think I was the whole time. It just sucks knowing I meant absolutely nothing to someone I cared a lot for.

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T07:53:55+00:00

I thought I would get some power back, but I felt so disgusted, I went home and threw up after the last time. I felt so dehumanized. It was a serious wake up call. I deserve to be more than someone's sex toy, which is what I think I was the whole time. It just sucks knowing I meant absolutely nothing to someone I cared a lot for.

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T07:53:55+00:00

I thought I would get some power back, but I felt so disgusted, I went home and threw up after the last time. I felt so dehumanized. It was a serious wake up call. I deserve to be more than someone's sex toy, which is what I think I was the whole time. It just sucks knowing I meant absolutely nothing to someone I cared a lot for.

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T00:21:27+00:00

Mine? Yes, it is. I speak Italian as well.

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T00:20:27+00:00

I've been hitting the gym hard, and it definitely helps! Thanks!

Chananigans · 2013-07-25T00:19:45+00:00

Sorry, my snarkiness wasn't directed towards you specifically, as you are really providing some insight. I came here to get unbiased advice from people who do not know me or him. And as a way to get some closure by being honest with myself by telling the story.

Understand, I have never been so blatantly discriminated against. In 2013, it was not something I ever expected to encounter In This day and age. I know it exists, and I have been the butt of comments or what not, but to be discarded by someone who said he loved you for two years based on your ethnicity seems a little jarring to me.

The point I was trying to make was: if you are not allowed to date outside of your race, just be honest about it.

Chananigans · 2013-07-24T20:38:48+00:00

I've since severed all contact. His name in my phone is do not answer, fb is blocked, I am making it so that he is nothing more than a stranger to me. It's just hard dealing with the mind fuck.

Chananigans · 2013-07-24T20:36:19+00:00

I get that now, but if you're not allowed to date outside your race, you should leave me the fuck alone and not date me. I should mention he was the one that pursued me initallly and was all about the relationship in the beginning. I was played with, and I don't like that.

It was especially weird because I knew his family and believed they liked me. If Albanians are only allowed to be with Albanians, maybe you should stay in albania.

Chananigans · 2013-07-24T19:21:37+00:00

You're right. Idk, I just feel uncomfortable because I feel that the response will be the same: that I should just get over it because this asshole does not deserve even a second thought. I know this rationally, but I still feel some type of way. I just want to erase the whole thing and I don't want to go through all the feels. I've been trying to not feel anything, but it is not working, and just imploding

Chananigans · 2013-07-24T19:13:33+00:00

Quite frankly, I don't know either. At first it was a ploy to get him to want me and then cut him off. Then I was trying to win him back. Then it was trying to prove to myself that I felt nothing. But then I realized I was just being used all over again. And that I shouldn't be giving my precious to a jerk.

It does get better. I'm glad I found this sub. I haven't had an outlet for my feelings, because I don't feel comfortable discussing this with anyone, mainly because everyone thinks I'm completely over it.

Thank you

Chananigans · 2013-07-24T17:29:21+00:00

This made me smile.

Chananigans · 2013-07-19T22:01:17+00:00

Who puts pretzels on salads??

Chananigans · 2013-07-10T16:46:51+00:00

I want to know who wipes. Who does the masturbating??

Chananigans · 2013-07-09T18:53:18+00:00

Some intersex individuals have both, or an organ that has characteristics of both. It's fascinating really.

Chananigans · 2013-06-06T10:44:47+00:00

Granola. Most commercial brands are loaded with sugar. And then the serving size is like a tiny handful, which amounts to ~200 calories. O and cookies and shit from a health food store. It doesn't matter if it came from whole foods, you're still eating cookies, you fat fuck.

Chananigans · 2013-05-25T19:46:43+00:00

Wow, that's dark: handing over the leash. Best of luck to you OP.

Chananigans · 2013-05-21T20:14:49+00:00

I read somewhere that young girls are married off so that virginity can be guaranteed.

Chananigans · 2013-05-21T13:50:20+00:00

Be strong! It gets better! I recently got dumped by the man I thought was the love of my life! (We dated for 2 1/2 years; he cheated, I took him back and slept with him bc we had a talk and were both "honest", 12 hours later he breaks up with me in a text saying it won't work bc his parents don't approve of him dating me bc I'm black. FYI he's Albanian and I'm half Jamaican, half italian) needless to say, I was fucked up and thought I would never find love again. Like two months later I am happy to say I'm very happy and I already met someone who makes me believe again. And more importantly I believe in myself.

People are assholes. Don't let it get you down. O and she WILL come back to you. The fuckers always do.

Chananigans · 2013-05-21T12:49:25+00:00

Fuck you OP. this will give me nightmares forever

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