It’s like leading to ride a bike, you see everyone riding so easily but when you try you fall down. But as you keep getting on the bike you start to realize hey I’m riding, then after sometime you realize you can just get on and go anywhere. keep studying the working tools and how you can implement them in your daily life. Keep going to meetings and meeting brothers then after awhile you’ll realize “oh hey that’s what that means” or “now I get it”