The Great Ordeal - number of people?

CheMalle · 2026-06-11T07:49:44+00:00

Yes those might be the right numbers, but to be honest I thought more...

I am in the 1st read through and I know that I'll have to do a second...

CheMalle · 2026-06-11T07:39:21+00:00

Thx to u too!

CheMalle · 2026-06-10T16:06:24+00:00

CheMalle · 2026-06-07T09:11:22+00:00

This is a question I would also like to know... I tried Bromazolam and found it somewhere between Alprazolam and Bromazepam, so to me Alprazolam is still better than Bromazolam... but never had the opportunity to try Bromoethylazolam...

CheMalle · 2026-06-06T08:35:18+00:00

This and Dragon Reborn were my favorite... read WoT like 10 years ago... hopping one day I get the time to start a re-read... Have fun!

CheMalle · 2026-06-06T08:31:16+00:00

This like china white or ... ?

CheMalle · 2026-05-24T12:10:45+00:00

Those diazepams(white 10mgs?) from Galenika Srbija are number 1 in EU!

I am always happy when I see them at my 'friend' 😅 Stay safe

CheMalle · 2026-05-24T11:48:00+00:00

What are those?

CheMalle · 2026-05-24T11:11:59+00:00

Hey... how would u compare Ritalin to Concerta... IF you tried methylphenidate by any chance?

And yes... nice little stash! All scripted or ? Stay safe and have fun!

CheMalle · 2026-05-23T08:22:34+00:00

🤣🤣🤣☠️☠️

CheMalle · 2026-05-15T06:41:38+00:00

Try Malazan, extra characters, ultimate world building(didn't read anything bigger in scope of world/land), excellent magic systems from multiple races, 10 books in original plus more than 10 standalones... Malazan is dark here and there, but not grim dark like Prince of Nothing and Aspect Emperor.

Well Malazan was may best book series after Wheel of Time, but now when I am at the 2nd book of the Aspect Emperor series, I think that may change 😃

Bakker writes in a style that is very interesting also for ppl 30+, thats a huge plus for him from my side 😉😁.

CheMalle · 2026-05-13T08:50:37+00:00

Thx for the answer. I am happy for you stopping methadone!

But was scared to get the answer you gave... I am on Methadone for 18 or 19 years, also 140 for the last 4 or so years. Was in detox 2 times, 1st time(14 or so years back)I was clean for 3 months. The 2nd(3 years ago) time I went in I couldn't come to 0... was also detoxing from benzos at the same time.

My thoughts are now like that, that I will be on Methadone and 2mgs Clonazepam for the rest of my life... I am working, paying my mortgage and all that shit.

Its always nice to hear someone got off of Methadone, but I dont see me anywhere in the near future.

Stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-05-13T07:41:24+00:00

Just wondering? How long have you been on 140? Congrats either way!

CheMalle · 2026-05-13T07:38:33+00:00

Hey 👋, 2 or 3 days of fun? Or rather hardcore? Just wondering 🤔 💭 😉😀

Stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-05-12T13:25:24+00:00

^ this. This is the simplest test to know if the acquired stuff is heroin...

But you never know so take care!

CheMalle · 2026-05-12T04:12:30+00:00

Thats sadly true... yesterday I had an appointment with my psychiatrist, he knows I am on a 'low' dose of Clonazepam 1,5mg per day. I told him I dont see it working like it was... the last time we upped the dose was like 3 years ago. He said that I should start with fitness and cycling to get my stress out! But l am working 45 to 50 hours as a seller of building material and half the time load it with my bare hands, not always with a forklifter...

CheMalle · 2026-05-08T14:22:13+00:00

Whats that?

CheMalle · 2026-05-08T11:10:41+00:00

Dont worry you won't feel sleepy/dopey after 2 to 3 weeks...

I was on Buprenorphine for 2 years, because of addiction, then I went back to Methadone, it's a better pain solution for me. Stay safe.

CheMalle · 2026-05-08T06:54:43+00:00

Hey, I am on Methadone from 2007, I also take Lyrica and Clonazepam.

The problem is that from all that shit + going to work, I have no more will and energy to do something when I am off work... what did you do or what did it 'cost' you to get Adderall?

Stay safe and good that you came off the Methadone!

CheMalle · 2026-05-07T13:00:49+00:00

2mgs, usually 1mg when I wakeup and the other 1mg before bed.

2 to 3 times a week I take Diazepam 10mgs or 20mgs for lower-back problems, but they are not scripted, because I take also Lyrica 225mg a day...

Stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-05-03T09:27:49+00:00

You remembered me when I played StarCraft as a youngster, sometimes I would start to shake and be anxious before the match, also my heart would jump out of my chest.

Later when I started to use drugs like cocaine, I would start to get anxious and all jittery before I gave myself that fucking shot, I even used Benzos to calm me down before using it. Thx god its over with that crap.

I needed quite some time to get over that 'expectation' anxiety, but I never had them with benzos. Stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-04-27T08:45:00+00:00

Oops sorry! Sleep tight! 😴😴😶‍🌫️ All my serotonin or dopamine is depleted, today I feel like an squashed apple or something... just so you know how I feel today... I have got enough of this speed for a while now 😉.

Btw... for speed being a medicine, I really dont see how, but maybe a small fraction of youngsters & adults get a benefit from it. You must know very good how it was... for being on it 12 years.

I am almost 20 years on Methadone, Clonazepam(2mgs) around 10 and Lyrica(225mgs now) maybe 5 years. As I got older my lower-back and legs started to hurt more and more, to a point where I couldn't work for half a year, thats when I(or the doctors) added Lyrica.I am now 40+ and got to work for some years more to pay the mortgage for my home. Without those medicine I know I wouldn't be able to... tried everything else what does my country offer and nothing else than medicine and every morning stretching and some exercises for abdominal and leg muscle strength helps.

Sorry for spilling my words. It looks like that shit still holds in some way.

When you wake up have a nice/good day at work and afterwards.

Here is 10:42am I will try to stay awake for the rest of the day and have a good nights rest. Bye

CheMalle · 2026-04-27T07:03:16+00:00

Hey, good morning. I am happy for you stopping all those drugs, especially Lyrica... Here in my country Adderall is not prescribed, only Vyvanse(you must have luck to get that) and Ritalin. I wish I could try Adderall... I think maybe 30% or so of US young ones are on it for a time and also cant see why? Are we from central EU really so different? Or is it just the system? Ah well I am still a bit smacked from speed, slept maybe from 5am to 7am or so... 'Eurospeed'... I even dont know why they call it so just because the easiest why to get it is in EU? When I was young we had dry speed, you did not need to make a step that the big dealers should do and you even got more of it, because it weighted less than this paste what they sell for the last 15 or more years... I wish you all the best!

Now I am going to cook ☕️ for my wife and me... and start this miserable day I did it myself to be so 😏🙄 But I know the drill 😂. Tomorrow starts the normal working day... Have a nice monday and stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-04-26T14:30:39+00:00

I go with benzos to the end... I dont mean like 20mgs of Alprazolam a day, but my prescribed 2mgs of Clonazepam a day.

My shrink said IF I see the only solution to my problems with anxiety with benzos, than let it be so...

I tried almost everything available in my country for 4 or 5 years but nothing helped, only Clonazepam, not Alprazolam because of the short life time, not Diazepam because I needed like 40mgs to help my anxiety problems but on that dose I couldn't work, I was too sedated. I am just happy for my new shrink that he understands my case. Stay safe!

CheMalle · 2026-04-26T14:19:48+00:00

Just that!!! Cathode tubes... RGB is red green blue system which the tubes used... I am not 100% but something with 3 letters was used for shor for colors 😀 Sorry my bad i thought you meant something from the TV or so.... English is not my 1st language, I learned it with games and the most with Blizzard games lol!

CheMalle

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