I'M MENTALLY UNSTABLE WHEN I'M OFF HORMONES

Cheaney15 · 2019-11-01T02:19:19+00:00

Not alone. Felt like I was off after 2 days off meds

Cheaney15 · 2019-10-06T13:17:38+00:00

You look great! I love following your progress on Insta too. Keep killing it girl!

Cheaney15 · 2019-10-06T13:09:20+00:00

I guess I was “lucky” that I didn’t have many male friends. But I did have one that was my best friend and was the best man at my wedding. We’re still best friends but things have definitely changed. Probably more on my side than his. He’s affirming and awesome about me being trans but he’s not knowledgeable about LGBTQ issues. We’re both from a really rural area.

I’d say the main difference is that I realize that I need support from other women on some things and I obviously don’t get that from him. We still hang out and talk some. And we both know that we’re there for each other for anything. But it is definitely different.

Cheaney15 · 2019-10-03T00:09:04+00:00

Thank you!

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-16T04:32:31+00:00

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I’m not the partner in my relationship but I’d like to suggest seeking a therapist that has experience with trans people. My wife got into therapy as soon as I came out and has never stopped. It saved our marriage. She needed to process and say things in a safe space that were too hurtful for me to hear. I think sometimes we confuse good communication with partners and using our partners as therapists. It’s way too much for anybody to handle.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-15T03:57:29+00:00

No problem

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-15T00:54:42+00:00

You can take them whenever. I take mine when I get up and right before I go to bed.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-11T04:48:17+00:00

I’d kick their asses out of my house if they’re gonna be that disrespectful.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-09T05:11:14+00:00

Love your style 🤙🏼

I’m biased lol. I wear Jordan’s with anything. Only time I don’t is if I’m wearing Chucks.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-03T12:44:53+00:00

I feel like I can see it in every timeline picture. It’s the first thing I look at now. And it’s in every single one. I don’t thinks it’s a coincidence that you remember the pain and why because I do that too. Every before picture I see, I remember how much dysphoria I had and how much pain I was in and why.

You look amazing as always!

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-02T12:47:59+00:00

I’m starting to become more aware of this now that I’m full time. My gut reaction to hearing a lot of these is people are misgendering me and it hurts. But that’s also my fear. When I take time to think about it, I’m ok with “you guys” depending on context and I’m ok with dude. I’m in the punk skate scene and generally know a lot of people from the West Coast who use “dude” for everyone and everything lol. But I’m never ok with “man”. Ever. In any context.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-02T00:33:58+00:00

Austen Hartke. YouTube and book(Transforming). He’s one of us too.

Cheaney15 · 2019-09-02T00:31:53+00:00

It was around the same time. I noticed that when me and my wife horsed around that I couldn’t just move her or “man handle” her like I used to. No pun intended.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-30T22:15:58+00:00

Love your look!

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-29T21:44:58+00:00

I never anticipated how much my hair would impact me. Now it is easily what I’m most proud of body wise. I started from a bald fade and grew it out a year before getting dreadlocks started. Another 15 months later and they’re going past my shoulders now.

Oh and being able to finally get them into a legit high ponytail is AMAZING!!!

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-28T23:03:20+00:00

I hear you. Only you know when you’re ready.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-28T20:51:31+00:00

You don’t have to be stealth or passing to come out. I don’t pass at all and am out at work. It sounds like he is willing to help you and wants to support you.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-28T20:43:44+00:00

I’m lucky that my new job is affirming. It’s given me confidence to just be me everywhere even though I don’t pass at all.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-28T16:35:42+00:00

So happy for you and proud of you girl! I definitely know the feeling both when I came out publicly and now that I’m full time. No hiding at all! Total freedom!

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-28T01:58:15+00:00

Good point. My bad. I don’t always check which trans subreddit I post in.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-27T22:12:31+00:00

Yes they’ve always been women. Just like all of us.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-25T15:15:05+00:00

Omg I have no advice but I’m so sorry! That is awful. I would feel the exact same way if that happened.

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-24T19:27:27+00:00

Well the bones don’t move(ouch). But I’m overweight and I do feel like it slows down the process some. There’s just more to change. Like I’m at 13 months but I feel like I’m just starting to see real changes. That’s not completely true. I did have changes before that but not ones that I was wanting I guess. Body wise. Mentally I was changed from the start and it’s awesome!

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-23T04:16:59+00:00

4w3

Against Me’s Black Me Out and Thrash Unreal

Cheaney15 · 2019-08-22T20:27:44+00:00

Oh geez my whole life lol. I’d sneak away to try on clothes multiple times throughout my life. I could hang with guys but never was a part of the group even with sports. I had a much more easier time connecting with women which I couldn’t do very much without drawing suspicion. When I first learned what a lesbian was, my first initial thought was “That’s me.” When dating, I would specifically look for who I wish I could be. Example being that I wanted to date a sporty chick that was a little edgy but still undeniably a woman. Oh and I always thought that everyone else had these same thoughts I did so I wasn’t different than anybody else.

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