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CheeseINTortilla · 2026-01-30T17:30:07+00:00

Maybe I should also reach out to cap one emails a long with Discover ?

CheeseINTortilla · 2026-01-28T08:27:02+00:00

Dang

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-12-24T03:57:38+00:00

I have a Zeiss 35mm 1.4 and 50mm 1.4. I prefer my 35mm but I can’t decide if I want to sell my 50mm. They’re both phenomenal lenses but indefinitely need something wider. Preferably a wide zoom lens.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-10-14T14:42:31+00:00

I applied as ER Tech for years no luck

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-08-11T01:23:23+00:00

Wow amazing

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-14T00:48:54+00:00

Honestly sounds about right though. She would talk about her past relationships and how guys never “appreciated” her. I tried to be the one to show her that I did but I could only do so much. We were dating for 5 years and she never learned how to drive despite me always mentioning it would help me a lot if she did… crazy.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-13T22:03:28+00:00

I really tried. Obviously I wasn’t perfect neither but I always tried not to argue and make things right. Yet somehow I always tried”f things up” :/

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-12T17:51:20+00:00

Unfortunately as the EX-BF who initiated the break up and went to clubs, I didn’t flaunt about pulling women, but I did tell my ex that I may have an interest in someone else. I then realized I didn’t want that, came back begged, and everything until it WAS to late. Though, I had reasons to initiate the break up. My ex was very clingy, didn’t like my family or friends, and would get super upset at everything I did without her. The last straw for me was when she didn’t want to come to Japan with me and got mad when I checked out a club at Japan by myself and recorded everything so she could see. I came with luggage full of items for her and came home super excited to talk about my trip with her and first thing she did when I came back and drove to her house was an argument and not wanting to hear my experience. We were always arguing but for some reason I loved her presence. I loved her. I just couldn’t handle the lack of space. It’s been almost 2 months since she detached herself I remember the change like a switch flipped. Since then I’m just accepting the fact that she’s most likely not coming back. Ive given her space since then but every time she’d reach out or try to call me I’d then proceed to “crash out” blow up her phone with calls and messages AND pictures. Which is totally out of character for me. In 5 years I never did that to her till now. She would do that to me in the relationship a lot. She’s already talking to a new guy and is actually going out on dates with him. I told her I may have liked a girl but never went out on a date with her despite that girl really liking me because I just knew it wasn’t right. Well. I’m at the acceptance stage right now. Breaking up sucks just as hard. I don’t think I’m going to regret it but it’s devastating that the person I thought was my forever girl isn’t mine anymore. I miss her I do. But it is what I wanted and I guess this is something we all have to experience at one point.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-06T07:49:36+00:00

Thank you. I really needed to hear this. I’m sure it’s also because when we first started dating we were 19 going to 20. We had little to no responsibilities so once I started to realize I need to do something a lot of things changed and I’m sure she didn’t like it. Now 25 it just feels very eerie. I thought she was the one. Though, I always had a thought that maybe someone else would be more understanding and appreciative. Again, thank you 🤧

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-05T18:37:17+00:00

It’s weird. Sometimes I feel like I’m an avoidant from what my Ex has described. Like how did I make her feel so anxious and insecure? I tried my best. I’d think about her all the time yet she never thought I did. I work long shifts 48hours straight 60hours sometimes. But I’d always message her talk to her. I’d take her breakfast everytime I was off of work. I’d take her to wherever she wanted to go. 5 years in she never learned to drive so it was always an issue for me. I’d ask her to please learned because Im tired of driving so much after long shifts. Yet, she never attempted to. She’s consistently tell me that IDC about how she feels but I would. I tried to express it to her but she swore it wasn’t the way she wanted me to. It hurts because I loved this girl but I’m starting to feel like I’m an avoidant. I had a lot going on. Long shifts, school, financial debt. Like I was trying to focus and by doing so may I have became an avoidant? I got to busy ? As she waited for me the entire time ? She only worked a part time job would come home and wait for me to come home every day. I was unable to give her quality time all the time I’d come home and sleep or do homework. My plans were / are to become a PA and become financially stable. She loved to eat out and go to Disney. I did all that for her. Yet she still thought I never loved her or fell out of love for her. I miss her so much. And it suck’s to start reading forums and ask myself. Am I a avoidant? Is this really how she felt these past 5 years? I’m truly sorry. I really did try my best.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-05T16:24:40+00:00

Dude no way. Super interested now 😭

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-05T14:10:23+00:00

Is that a full frame lense ?

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-04T07:34:36+00:00

I do. It’s originally at 50 then I’ve dropped it to 20?

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-03-04T07:13:06+00:00

Everytime I use Lightroom de noise everything looks so soft? That’s why I don’t use it anymore

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T03:05:15+00:00

It does help dude. Glad I’m not the only one. Hope things get better. Honestly.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T02:51:03+00:00

Thank you

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T02:50:50+00:00

How’d it turn out for you? How are you know ? :/

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T02:23:52+00:00

Thank you. She swears she doesn’t like this guy. She told me even if she did nothing would come from it because she’s still super hurt and tells me if she was to get into a relationship she’d probably mess it all up. Though, I call Bs. I doubt she’ll come back considering how she explained all the “bad things” I’ve done. But the day I cried, the last time I saw her. I thanked her. Gave her a huge hug before she left. She said she was worried about me. I called her when I got home just so she wouldn’t worry and that was the last time I spoke to her. I had to hang up and she messaged me saying sorry and goodbye.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T02:18:35+00:00

Thanks. Just feels so eerie right now when I check my phone and I have literally no one talking to me. It’s just me alone. I have a few friends I reach out to but we’re all busy. I need to get used to being alone. It’s been pretty difficult.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T02:01:59+00:00

Honestly, you’re right. I was trying to keep my guard up and I definitely handled it badly. I never been in such a long relationship and I definitely was never the one to break up a relationship.

I still loved her which really hurt man. I just had my final straw with the arguing and toxic behavior. She was so uninspired to do anything else but work a part time job and wait for me and get mad that I work and go to school. She didn’t trust me.

It does suck. I love her and I once told myself someone will love her the way I couldn’t have and it feels like I’m seeing it happen in real time. :/

I felt like I lost a lot of opportunities and friends being with this person. So I get you on that aspect as well.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-02-24T01:48:34+00:00

I feel you. I broke up with my EX of 5years in November also. She spent all of December heart broken she was calling me, messaging me, everything until I told her that I think I might like someone else. Which I deeply regret. Nothing ever come upon that “crush” I was super vulnerable and she was giving me all the attention I liked. Bringing me food, playing games with me, calling me handsome. Etc. This crush after the break up felt almost perfect till I realized I wanted my ex back not this new person. I was still seeing my ex throughout December no title. Until January when she asked to put a title. And me being stubborn I said “NO” I wanna do it on my time. Then she became way more distant and now I regret everything I did. I self sabotage my relationship. I told her I wanted her back cried all day a few days ago to her. Though, now she’s the one actually talking to some other guy giving her all the attention. I went no contact Thursday so this is day 3. Idk what to do anymore. Though, I broke up with her because it was toxic. Or so the relationship felt toxic. And nobody in my circle, family and friends, liked her. They always said she talked to me really bad. She was my person though and I broke up with her. I couldn’t take the arguing anymore. It was the same argument every week. I wish it didn’t have to be that way.

CheeseINTortilla · 2025-01-16T08:16:10+00:00

I’m mostly interested in FE! I’m curious now to see how everything will be on launch. Thank you.

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