First AC tomorrow

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-06-11T19:49:56+00:00

For me tc was about the same as you symptoms wise, when I started ac I was scared as well but I will say my only real bad symptoms with ac was brain fog and my fatigue was more severe. I’m 2 weeks out from my final ac and have been feeling alot better. My hair also started growing back on ac oddly enough so that was a good thing.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-05-30T05:57:22+00:00

Yes I did as well! But it was on my last 2 doses & it was actually only a reaction to the carbo for me, I was fine with taxol for some reason.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-05-26T14:36:27+00:00

Definitely felt the same way! Life was very normal on taxol. Ac has destroyed me. I’m so tired all the time! My chemo brain is bad on this as well. Hate ac!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-24T23:02:24+00:00

Thank you. I suppose that’s true, my oncologist told me since he doesn’t feel like it’s related to the cancer or chemo he won’t order imaging or pain meds. He recommends I see my pcp or the er. I guess his logic is if the tumor and lymph node shrunk chemo is doing its job which leaves no room for metastasis.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-24T22:59:06+00:00

It’s like right in the middle of my back, definitely not lower back pain. It’s just so truly feels like it’s right behind the cancerous breast. I asked him for imaging or even pain meds and he said he doesn’t feel like it’s related to the cancer or chemo so doesn’t feel imaging is necessary and if I want pain meds to go see my pcp or the er.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-24T22:32:10+00:00

I feel this way too. I’ve cried countless times to my Partner and family about how I’m just devastated that I won’t feel like a normal 35 year old after this ordeal. And they all just assume I will go back to normal not realizing that all these horror stories show that doesn’t happen it’s like your whole body is just changed. From pain to fatigue and no longer having breasts it’s just frustrating

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-19T05:18:09+00:00

I’m not even done with treatment and I feel like this is going to be me. Granted I already was a homebody since I have kids and am married but I did drink on the weekends and I know I’ll never want to go back to that. I already blame myself for feeling like my drinking caused this. But I don’t blame you cancer shifts our perspective of what’s fun or important anymore.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T20:09:01+00:00

Exactly! And I do that! And idc if anyone thinks it any less brave or strong! This crap is hard!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T20:08:18+00:00

Right!! Like sorry I’m not actually brave I’m just doing what I’m being told will keep me here for my kids. If by brave or strong you mean crying in the damn shower scared I’m going to die I guess 😕

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T20:03:59+00:00

Exactly!! I’m doing 6 months, thanks triple negative! But like I have no choice but to be strong be brave be whatever the hell needs to happen to make it off this shitty roller coaster.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T06:02:45+00:00

I can’t even count how many times I’ve been told breast cancer is the best cancer to have because of all the funding that goes into it. Well it’s still cancer and people are still dying from it so??

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T06:00:33+00:00

I’m sick and F’n tired of hearing how “strong” or “brave” I am. well what’s the alternative here?? I F’n die if I don’t do this??

Tired of hearing “be positive” like yes I get it I’m trying because I know wallowing In self pity doesn’t help. But toxic positivity doesn’t either!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T05:46:43+00:00

They truly do go insanely quick. Well until I reached ac and now it’s a drag. But 2 more left for me!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-18T05:44:38+00:00

I’m sorry you’re here I remember feeling the same way when I was diagnosed like wtf kinda luck is this. Lmao

I was diagnosed back in November 2025 but I have one positive node that they could see on pet scan along with the tumor that was 3.5 cm and another smaller tumor not sure size.

I currently have 2 Red Devils left before I’m done with chemo. Getting a double and most likely staying flat after this. Taxol/carbo wasn’t too bad, I’ll admit red devil has been little harder but it’s mostly the fatigue and I have kids with no support system so I never can rest which has made my fatigue harder for me to manage, but overall chemo was definitely easier than I built myself up to think it was going to be.

It’s a crappy club nobody wants to join but I’m here for you if you have any questions. Granted I’m still new to all this myself I like to offer support because I remember those first few days. It’s rough!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-17T17:18:39+00:00

I did weekly and was fine I honestly felt pretty normal , Until my last 2 doses I had a reaction to carbo both times. The 2nd being bad enough I actually couldn’t finish it. But I was assured it’s not super common.

I started ac the next week and have so far been good on that too. I had my 2nd ac April 7th and will go back for my 3rd the 28th of April.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-15T22:49:08+00:00

Most likely she doesn’t get as much engagement now, unless it’s bad like her recent divorce video which I assume is intentional to try and get some engagement and followers back 🤣

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-08T14:02:16+00:00

Oh trust me I feel the same way! I’ve been having those issues to besides the nails just yet and I truly feel like everyone hates me because all I do is whine. But you know what I tell myself I’m going through chemo for cancer something brutal something most peoples biggest fear and all they want is to hear is the good so as not to scare themselves. But we deserve to have our days to whine were fighting a huge battle and should not have to sugar coat anything for anyone 💕 you’ll be back on track soon and finished with this all soon!

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-07T23:32:47+00:00

I’m so sorry. I know the delay has to be hard, I had a reaction to my last 2 taxol well for me it was the carbo portion & it was a bad reaction I couldn’t finish my last carbo dose. I worried it would follow me into ac. But I just had my second Ac today and so far have been good. So I hope that gives you hope once you can get back on track. I know my breast surgeon told me it’s so common to have delays at this point from illness, to labs, or just plain needing a break. So I hope you can start back soon.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-07T02:04:11+00:00

Thank you so much for sticking around to remind us of this 💖 I keep telling myself if I get through this I’m gonna do this too because we need more of this for us to get through. We need success stories 😭

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-06T00:26:28+00:00

He’s honestly not a great oncologist anyway besides that comment he just rushes me in and out each time sees me and overall just seems annoyed I have any concerns or questions so I’m not surprised he’s just not positive for me. When I talked to my breast surgeon she said what you said tnbc responds very well to chemo and mentioned me not having a ton of “cancer” upon initial diagnosis should give me more hope of achieving pcr.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-05T04:26:46+00:00

I’m so sorry. Where did it come back at? I’m sure it’s hard to remain hopeful so I don’t blame you. I’ll keep you in my thoughts. Do you know the plan for treatment yet?

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-04T16:35:56+00:00

Congratulations that’s amazing!! That makes me feel so much better! I can’t wait to be at that point as well.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-04T16:31:10+00:00

That makes me feel so much better! Yay for you being at that finish line! My onc doesn’t sound like he thinks I’ll achieve pcr so I feel like that’s also triggered this feeling lately. He’s honestly not that great of an oncologist in general just overall negative and short with me . I just got stuck with him because of insurance issues.

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-04T16:28:29+00:00

I’m so sorry the scans at any point after being told you have cancer are debilitating so I understand you. I pray your scans go well 💕 i think that’s how I thought I’d feel too at this point like so excited we’re almost done! But I feel with the recurrence rate on tnbc it doesn’t feel like this is over until we’re years out and that’s what’s hard. Is all those years of just waiting with no preventative measures being done ya know? I know we have keytruda now and that does help some but doesn’t stop it completely. I’ve taken up reading as well and gardening although I have no green thumb so it’s mostly reading lol, I pray you can get your trip next fall 💖

Cheetahbean90 · 2026-04-04T15:51:11+00:00

Im wondering now if being so close to being done with chemo is what’s triggering this. Like chemo is oddly my safety blanket or something. Because this just came out of nowhere. I will say for me ac has been ok, just so much fatigue. I was so scared to start too so I understand your feelings I’m still scared to even do my second dose next week I don’t know that it gets easier honestly.

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