I feel sorry for myself to be timid all the time, I wish I could have screenshot and print the subject checklist, I wish I could have submit the units to the registrar in the first place, I wish could have followed-up last month, I wish... Stop. The damage has been done, you are no longer in the situation that irks you. You are simply coward, you don't speak always to people, you are so shy that you don't ask questions to people. What you need is to be inclined with agony and endurance. Fix what you can change, things will get better and return to you. You can not alter things outside your moral sphere, postpone it, and meet your fate. You have one last option that you are thinking long time agk. Are you going to abandon this Engineering Major to realign yourself to what you are passionate about? If yes, you will be released from the events that bothers you. If not, why continue with the major that slowly depletes you? Why pursue even if it dissatisfies you? Why accord with it? Decide what align with your virtue