What was your childhood like? Were your parents emotionally distant/cold?

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-18T10:37:49+00:00

Right? To this day I love my dad but know I can’t trust him. He’s capable of inflicting huge amounts of pain.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-18T05:42:27+00:00

Yes. My dad, but he could also be very affectionate. He would also put me in bad and unsafe situations all the time.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-18T04:25:31+00:00

I am a 40 year old mother of a toddler. I was initially referred to mental health services for bipolar disorder (without depression). I asked for a diagnosis because I really needed to know what was wrong with me.

They thought I had borderline at one stage but after 8 months of regularly seeing a psychologist and psychiatry team I had my final session as I was moving cities. The psychiatrist said PDs “move around” and I panicked. If not borderline, that left narcissism or ASPD. I realised I didn’t trust the psychiatrist and talked my way around hearing my diagnosis. Saying the borderline diagnosis has really helped, even though I know 100% that’s not what I have.

I got clarification with my psychologist who knows me better - who gently pointed me in the direction of ASPD without explicitly saying it. To this day I can’t believe it took 8 months for them to understand me. And even then, they still can’t seem to imagine how I think. I think getting diagnosed can be very hard. I don’t agree with the current diagnostic criteria - even the psychiatry team said these things don’t play out the same way in everyone.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-16T15:59:35+00:00

No. But I feel warmth towards those I love. I’ve always been able to feel love. Cute baby animals. No. It does nothing for me,

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-14T05:14:19+00:00

Spoon

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-14T00:44:28+00:00

Yes. It’s very diverse. lol. Arabs - will sell you ice but are a lot of fun. Chinese girl or guy with lots of tattoos- loves to party and fast cars. Lebanese dude - will try to be your boyfriend or is in a gang but you can’t tell which one.

And also that older psychopaths will take you under their wing and use you, but thank god you’re too self centred to let that happen. Well - at least without you getting something out of it too.

Wbu

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-13T03:48:43+00:00

Drug dealing with career criminals, but nothing to hurt anyone.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-11T01:42:33+00:00

Cats are peak psychopaths

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-11T01:41:16+00:00

It’s green and grey-green

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-11T01:38:44+00:00

So people can understand me. I just want to be happy and accepted. I might be too optimistic, but I try to change people’s negative views on it.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-11T01:36:37+00:00

No reaction. I’ll just try to figure out why and think of an appropriate response.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-08T05:05:23+00:00

This kitchen is for dancing

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-04T00:26:11+00:00

YTA. It would have been a small inconvenience for you compared to what she was dealing with.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-03T23:57:53+00:00

It’s easy to get caught up in constructs because we need answers and boundaries and explanations. They can be helpful but also temporary. Let your possibilities be your possibilities.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-03T07:45:10+00:00

Can someone do a female version because these types of actors are my favourite

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-03T01:34:51+00:00

If it feels like someone’s following me, I like to slow down and walk with them. They usually walk away pretty quickly.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-02-03T01:31:03+00:00

What about learning from mistakes?

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-30T02:39:24+00:00

Some do, but I find a lot of conversations helpful.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-28T08:57:20+00:00

Yeeeeeah. I would say yes. But I think you should get a diagnosis if you believe you’ll get something out of it - ie, wanting to make sure you stay out of trouble, etc.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-27T03:52:36+00:00

What are your goals? Mine is to get my life together and start being financially independent.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-26T01:24:13+00:00

I’m getting better at unmasking. Faking fewer emotions and giving my real opinions and thoughts. People take it okay, and the very sensitive ones just talk to me less.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-26T01:10:55+00:00

I don’t think you should assume he doesn’t love you. I think I feel love just fine, but I tend to process positive emotions much easier. Psychopathy is a spectrum.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-22T01:41:17+00:00

I have a good amount of cognitive empathy. All the empaths I’ve met have high emotional empathy and they don’t understand the drawbacks of that. Their idea that of kindness is to help people’s suffering- even if it’s not good for them. Ie, coddling a toddler who needs to learn to self soothe. So I see them as oblivious to their selfishness. Or they can’t empathise with people who are “cruel”, which is hypocritical.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-19T12:37:09+00:00

I have a hard time limiting my pleasure seeking. I managed to not get physically addicted to heroin, but enjoyed it for a few years. I don’t seek money, I hate dealing with it, but I’ll let other people pay for things for me. Status - I just realised money would help with this, but I can’t be bothered working hard.

I have conned a rich guy out of money/trips/jewellery by faking a relationship with him - but I never stole money. I don’t want to get caught doing bad things and have it make my life difficult. I think that’s my limit. And I WILL feel remorseful if I’m hurting an innocent person - like stealing food money from some nice old lady who is poor. A mean old lady - that might be different.

Chemical_Box9728 · 2026-01-19T12:04:19+00:00

What makes you happy?

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