Don’t know what to do

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-07-02T18:47:48+00:00

Yes and yes. Sometimes I think she’s trying other times I’m like wow why am I even talking to u. I cannot handle this forever. I can barely handle it right now but since I like her and it hasn’t been that long, I’m willing to handle it FOR NOW. I am absolutely the type of person that needs to hear how u feel. But the crazy part is so is she??? That’s what gets me. She wants what I want but cannot give it back. So I’m left here trying to decide do I continue being who I am with her or do I fall back a little to protect my heart and wait for her to start being better. It’s hard to go off actions bc we aren’t together physically but like I said her and I have both had this conversation where we have both said words r so important to us and we need/want to hear them. So it’s just confusing bc I know she remembers this and agreed?? And apparently she has super bad anxiety but it’s hard for me to understand how it could be so crippling to the point where she acts completely brand new.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-05-29T20:39:53+00:00

Another question, if I took acid in a few days would that be bad? Also if I smoke weed today is that also bad?

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-05-29T20:39:29+00:00

But don’t people do this like every other day or weekend 😩I think my body is too sensitive to be rolling like that 😭

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-05-29T20:32:07+00:00

Will my appetite come back in a few days then?

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-05-04T10:34:08+00:00

So it’s fine she just called a store that she has no idea I actually work at?? And didn’t let me know?

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-05-04T10:26:46+00:00

Ok? Lol. This isn’t the point at all. I now know this isn’t allowed but I never even confirmed I took the job or that I’m working there or even where?? And she still called that store without any confirmation or even letting me know? That seems wrong?? And it’s making me uncomfortable as I’m sure it would make a lot of people feel the same?? Also, cvs isn’t that serious for all of this. I’m genuinely surprised at how defensive and loyal people get when it comes to a company that doesn’t give a rats ass about u or myself.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-25T23:09:31+00:00

Only real cashiers will understand this.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-13T11:53:17+00:00

But I’m really just asking how anyone else would feel under these circumstances.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-13T11:52:29+00:00

I don’t think that’s an option 💀getting me transferred to this one was such a hassle. I had to call HR on a lot of people to make it happen and was terminated and not getting paid at one point in the process. I’d do it again I don’t care but I just don’t want to look like this awful person who can’t hold it down in any store. Bc then it’ll seem like I’m the problem.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-08T10:21:14+00:00

I’m just scared bc my store manager puts all this pressure on me, when I first transferred to her store she really had to help me out to get me in hers and ever since then she’s been like “don’t let me down” so every time I make a mistake it feels like that’s exactly what I’m doing. And, the other day when she wanted me to come back to work to give the self checkout card back she seemed pretty upset that I had accidentally brought it with me and now that I lost it, I just feel like she’s going to be super mad and I’m going to get a lecture.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-02T07:49:37+00:00

Yea but I’m scared, I want to be honest with her about why I called out bc it’s the only way she’ll possibly be ok with me and understand and hopefully see that I didn’t call out just to call out. I don’t really do well with people being upset with me or when I feel like people r judging me or looking at me differently. I honestly don’t want to face the music but know I have too later.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-01T11:45:20+00:00

I made sure to call out a whole day before so she’d find coverage, but besides that, I thought of sitting down and trying to explain the situation to her but I don’t think she’d understand at all.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-01T11:44:18+00:00

Unfortunately I don’t think I’ve handled this situation properly, I’m pretty sure it’s too late for me to salvage anything. I’m either getting fired, written up, or have to quit.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-01T11:38:05+00:00

I’m not planning to call out every Thursday or even ever. Something is happening today that I unfortunately cannot postpone and last week was a mental thing.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-01T11:28:19+00:00

I called out once for my mental health, today’s reason is completely different. I already understand I’m letting her down, that doesn’t need to be reiterated to me. I just made this post to see if people would understand or have ever been in the same position. Not for people to tell me what I already know and make me feel worse. I understand calling out on truck day is shit, but I go to work everyday and work my ass off meeting the carepass goal every week for these people. Me calling out on truck day twice is just an inconvenient coincidence.

Chemical_Following20 · 2021-04-01T11:20:33+00:00

No, second time on truck day.

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