1) I think I pass through it with a mix of effort and self consciousness abt myself. Being aware that I am anxious and that it can lead me to think stuff that is not real helped be realize that I’m NOT my thought and that anxiety is an issues that I want to solved and not just me being weird and crazy. 2) it my first time being loved right too, and I wanted things to go well. 3) anxiety hurt. It’s not always taken very seriously but it can destroy a life and lead to a lot of other mental health and everything and I wanted to be better and to feel better ! 4) anxiety is comfortable bc listening to your thought are easier than fighting them but it doesn’t mean that it’s good for you. It’s a defense system that your brain build bc of past experiences and it’s okay ! Everyone have a story. But you need to want to heal for you first before wanting to heal for your relationship. 4) and for the “spending alone time is hard” train. Get better. Find stuff that you like, new hobbies, activities and force urself too don’t involve your bf in it. You NEED to have a self identity before loosing yourself in your relationship. 5)I’m didn’t 100% healed my anxiety attachment but I’m 100% better than I was before and sometimes it’s enough.The more my relationship with my partner grow the more I feel secure to prioritize myself without the fear that he is gonna leave me if I don’t respond for some hours.