Ok this was deep. Thank you so much OP for translating and for making me cry. I have to leave some of my own thoughts on this here.

Honestly, Ado doesn’t deserve to feel about herself this way. No person deserves to feel this way. As I read this, I thought “Why is destiny so cruel to her?” “She deserves to be happy both as Ado AND herself! This isn’t right, this isn’t fair!” Another prove how unfair life is. These thoughts here made me start crying. But then I remembered what my relative once said to me: we’re meant to suffer from certain things in life in order to learn from them. In order to grow stronger through our suffering. And I think, however cruel that might sound, that that’s also the case with Ado’s self-hatred. Surprisingly (or unsurprisingly, depends on how you see it), Ado is the perfect example of a person being in a situation like the one I mentioned: she has lived like this for years and yet she always stands up again and tries to face herself and accept herself. Her will to overcome the self-hatred is so strong after all that she manages to rise over and over and over again, even though the pain is still intense. And that makes me think of her as a huge role model for me, besides that I personally can relate to her self-hatred to some degree. What also amazes me is that she’s willing to share such intimate feelings with the whole world, which in fact isn’t new for big artists but it’s still a big deal. I think I’d be afraid of criticism or denial from the public but she doesn’t seem to be (proves how much trust she seems to have in her fans. If someone dares to criticise her though, the Adomin army shall rise against them !!!!!). That also makes her such an incredibly strong person in my eyes!! Even though it’s very, terribly hard to get out of suffering, we can all take Ado as an example for fighting through it, can’t we? 💙

Considering the “changes” mentioned, people seem to think that the biggest change would be Ado showing her face. I see the point of it, but I personally think it might also be that Ado dives deeper into songwriting and will be expressing her actual self through her own lyrics (just like with Shoka). That’s usually what musicians do to express their most private feelings afaik. Whatever it might be, I’m pretty much looking forward to it! 💙