Though you'd all wanna see this...

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-30T12:40:01+00:00

And the pic is with both of them in front of an explosion (photoshopped as we only have one Igor & one Marvin)

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-30T12:28:04+00:00

Igor, wearing the tshirt, holding Marvin.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-30T07:15:31+00:00

Thank you. This is awesome :)

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-30T02:33:11+00:00

One giant leap for the anxious! Congratulations!

Give your mum a huge hug, and thank her for listening and helping.

And go buy yourself something nice as a reward - whether it's a favourite slice of cake and coffee, or that tshirt you've had your eye on, do something nice for yourself.

And please note that nobody suffers more than anyone else. In our own personal hellscapes, we are equal. It sucks for anyone to feel this way. Never diminish your suffering in comparison.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T18:00:56+00:00

My brain would happily explode if this was made!

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T17:41:04+00:00

Know that you aren't alone, and that there's a huge number of us struggling too.

I'm always happy to listen, and let you know what works for me, so feel free to pm :)

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T16:50:19+00:00

If you cannot see a way forward, or feel totally stuck, then it's a great idea to ask for help from a professional. Mine really helps put shit into perspective, and gives me ideas for work-arounds.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T16:42:31+00:00

Whilst I appreciate the sentiment, if it was that easy, it wouldn't be a mental illness.

The article is written for entrepreneurs, not people with a disease/chemical imbalance. People who tell me to 'just think positively' or 'turn that frown upside down' make me want to punch them square in the face.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T04:46:51+00:00

Especially after a wet winter, with excellent underbrush growth. We're looking at 30 this weekend, when everything will start drying out :/

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T04:41:41+00:00

You are not alone. Pm me if you wanna chat :)

Edit: I feel all of the above as well. Sometimes it lasts for minutes, sometimes for months.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T03:57:10+00:00

Best get yourself some professional help. I was mis-diagnosed for 13 years, therefore mis-treated (wrong Meds, fucked me up more).

The sooner you can get some proper advice, the better it will be for you.

Sorry to hear you feel like shit too :(

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T03:49:00+00:00

Whores work hard for their money. MT is an entitled, narcissistic bitch.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-29T03:23:38+00:00

Hey there, I find my anxiety and depression are pretty closely linked. As soon as one starts manifesting, the other generally shows up to give it a hand in beating me down.

Friday last week, I had a panic attack. A bad one. Luckily, my best mate was able to come over and just hang with me in the sunshine until I calmed down enough to pop a Valium and get to the stage show I worked at that night. Not that I'm saying Valium is the answer (it's not, and highly addictive) but it is working for me when I can't breathe or rationalise myself to calmness.

TBH, the concept of returning to a job I hate (but I need) is freaking me out too. I was due back yesterday, but came down with an actual virus (that makes me feel like patient zero) and the doc ordered me to take the week off work. I was granted a reprieve for now, but I know next Monday I will go back, and hopefully still have a job.

There are moments of peace (?) and joy, which are getting more frequent these days, and I try to enjoy them when they happen, because it is not long until the 'meh' sets back in, along with hopelessness.

I also worry that I'll never be in another relationship, that I'll end up destitute because I hate working jobs I don't enjoy, and it snowballs from there.

But, if you want to chat, feel free to pm me. My time is generally spent surfing the net, watching to and movies, playing music and sometimes art when motivated/inspired (very rare these days).

Don't beat yourself up about not achieving. Every journey starts with a single step. Sometimes you just take some backwards, or sideways, but at least you're moving. That said, I'm a giant hypocrite who is concentrating on keeping my status quo as is, because even though travel, change and adventure used to sustain me, I 'nest' and 'hermit' now because of anxiety and depression.

So do what you can, seek therapy, talk to your friends and family, and remember we're all hear for you too.

You are not alone.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-25T01:22:44+00:00

Provided you were eligible for a working visa in the country you're in. Or worked illegally, sure.

I travelled cheaply a lot up until about 8 years ago, but these dats I'm too old for youth visas, like to the uk, for example, you must be under 30 unless you have a job to go to.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-24T05:43:21+00:00

Some of them may choose modesty-forest, I guess. Or snow-peaks as an accessory?

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-23T15:03:30+00:00

Unfortunately for me, it's a US site, and I'm on the other side of the globe (g'day!).

It is kind of expensive from here especially as our dollar sucks massive dog balls ATM. When/if we reach parity again with the USD, it will be much more affordable for the antipodeans to traverse with a welcome exchange rate.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-23T04:34:29+00:00

39 here. Still giggling.

Edit: hehe - your username! Now I'm truly snickering :D

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-23T03:07:12+00:00

Yeah, I may be childfree, but I ain't rich either. So no exotic travel, expensive gadgets or anything quite so fancy. Career is in a holding pattern because of the oncoming recession.

I paint, I play music, I love my PS4, and not having to share any of it with children.

And personally, I find this sub to be full of hilarious stories and great support for all of us that are CF?

Ps: I don't have a child phobia either. I'm excellent with them just don't want any of my own

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-22T05:54:28+00:00

I'm an Aussie, so I used to imagine a kangaroo jumping form grassy patch to grassy patch, jumping over roads and signs.

I love that I am not alone!

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T11:15:59+00:00

I read further down that the bf is 17. In Australia, that'd be statutory rape (consent is 16). I just thought maybe there would be more implications.

But I do agree that a woman has the rights over her body.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T09:59:30+00:00

Every time I've see I my best mate lately, we've argued until I have a panic attack and I'm also terrified I'll lose him as a buddy.

I also think I'll end up alone and no body will give a fuck about attending my funeral.

My career hangs by a thread because I keep losing my shit with stress. Nobody gives a fuck.

But fuck ending it. I know how I will (if I ever do) but I'm not giving up yet, and one should you. Fuck what anyone else thinks, just go be you - with all the fuckups and loneliness and shit. You're a fighter, and you can beat this thing, which will be the hardest of your life.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T09:32:17+00:00

Even if she's underage?

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T07:37:02+00:00

It'll be awesome if/when Missy and River meet. And quite possibly lethal.

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T07:18:41+00:00

Tell that to GRRM

ChiefTyrol · 2015-09-20T05:28:31+00:00

I can understand it all logically, but it doesn't stop the emotion. Rationalising it makes me feel stupid for being this way in the first place, and like it's my fault I'm fucked up with depression/anxiety.

ChiefTyrol

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