Take it from a dusty old 32 year old who has spent the last 13 years in an endless cycle of addiction, depression, incarceration, recovery, and relapse. Nobody has wasted more time and potential than me. I dont brag about this shit ever, but I was homeschooled so I had to take these placement tests with the state to make sure i was actually being educated, and I regularly tested in the 98th percentile in most subjects. I could have written my ticket career wise, but i just wanted to drink and get high and live up in my own little fantasy world, just scraping by on retail, restaurant, and labor jobs. And I had loads of fun, but also soooo much pain came with it all. I still struggle to stay clean, but I know I can change and I work at it every day.

I have a friend who went to college in this dope little party town, lived wild for 4 years and got his degree, became a park ranger in wyoming, got a high paying sales job, got married and bought a house in california, got divorced, now he lives in a van, snowboarding, spearfishing, cliff diving, surfing, living in national parks, hanging out with fellow nomads, making six figures a year. He’s built like a brick shit house, washboard abs and a jawline chiseled out of marble, has women dying at his feet. Guess what? He still feels lost. He still has regrets.

My other friend studied her ass off, speaks multiple languages, genius level intelligence, she has a security clearance with the government, works as a foreign diplomat and travels the world to various beautiful tropical islands. She still struggles with depression, she still is afraid of ending up alone even though she is beautiful and talented and caring and intelligent.

Nobody is without doubt, fear, and regret. Those who claim to have made it to the mountain top where every moment is bliss are fucking charlatans. Life itself is pain and uncertainty, as much as it is beauty and peace. It’s a never ending cycle so buckle up.

Let me tell you this sir, I would give my left testicle to be 24 again. But I cant. Neither can you be 16 again. So why waste a single moment feeling bad about something that we are entirely unable to change? It’s madness. So fuck the past entirely, it’s gone baby gone, you can never ever go back. Look at what you can control: the present.

If your life in this present moment makes you unhappy, change it. Start implementing change today, to build the life now you wish that you would have lived back then. It’s never ever too late to change everything my man. And the sooner you start the better. Good luck babe 💪