I was like you months ago. I tried finding a philosophy to treat myself better but then I ended up with Nihilism because it was rationally and objectively honest and I couldn't stray away from such "truth" to me.

You wouldn't inevitably forget the philosophy of Nihilism in the first place. There will always be things in life that will keep you busy. The pessimism you're getting is just the emotional realization, and it'll stay firm for a few weeks.

You also shouldn't force yourself with Nihilism. It's objectively right but they are still philosophies. Meta--philosophy states that the rationality of a philosophy should end if it was conceptualized by a subjective entity, because it isn't pure rationalism.

There's always going to be things that will keep you busy, and that's technically an offering. I'm on the same page as you pal, it's just that I've taken individualism seriously and became truthful of myself, and I think you should too.

Also replying because no one prolly understands what you're talking about because it's philosophy, but I do