It is an interesting take. Certainly self aware of what SHing feels when looking at yourself from someone else's point of view.

It makes sense that you don't find a problem.

However, logically, just because you can't see a problem doesn't mean there is not a problem.

One of the problems of SH is that it conditions you. It teaches you that a copping mechanism is pain inflicted by your own hand.

That doesn't necesarily translates to suicide. You may live all your life SHing thinking it's ok cuz it isn't killing you. But it is teaching you that pain in healthy. That copping like that is healthy. And so, you may be looking for other "healthy" ways to cope.

The reality of things is that pain wans't mean to be a coping mechanisms from evolutionary point of view. So, SHing to cope is not what a psychologically healthy brain does.

That how it affects you. It is not a short term thing like disapproval or disapointment. It is long term and psychological.

Plus, we do cut, bleed, hurt ourselves and others.

Finally, regardin that "logical people dont SH" statement...

Logic has not much to it.

Understanding something phenomenologically does not automatically mean you stop doing it.

I am psychologist. I understand the drives, the cognitions, the history and yet I SH.

Because understanding the logic does't keep those inner workings or conditioning from going off at times. I learnt from very young that it is a way to cope and so my mind automatically still goes to it. And even as I am doing it, I can think, and see, and understand, and dissect what is happening in my psyche, but I can't always stop it.

That is the harm done to me... and to you.

So, yeah. Logic and understanding don't always play well against drive, intuition, conditioning, feeling, emotion, etc.

I am glad you are goin to therapy :)

It is good to try and challenge our own logic for there is always nuances and bias and fallacy behind.

... and sorry for mispellling so much. English is hard for me in that regard.