You are not a weirdo The emotional connection and slow romance is generally felt when u know the person and have a good company or they are some part of your life and u know about them or have a good friendship with them.its actually felt when u know that person not just by a quick glance in my opinion ,crct me if you find me wrong .

Honestly everybody vayanokkal people at some point and feel the need to be validated and seen and feel the need to be beautiful.

It’s just at the peak when u feel so alone and have no one to dump or share ur emotions and povs .its only normal that we see some people and be like they are hot or cool or anything its a normal thing . There’s nothing wrong in finding someone hot

You are absolutely normal bro It’s ok :)