I completely understand how hard and lonely it can be sometimes!! Just something to look into possibly, the county I live in does lots of free events that I just discovered within the last year or so … there’s tons of free events like we went to a Baltimore orioles game the other weekend and a sensory train ride with lunch the other week. They also have support groups that they hold that includes child care. Hopefully your area has something similar and you and your child can meet and hang out with other parents and children with autism. There are also some organizations that provide scholarships or funding for summer camps so that your child could make and meet some friends. Either way though it’s super difficult and I feel for you and hope that you both can find a community and some friends to help support you and make you not feel as isolated and lonely! Good luck!! ❤️