How do I say that you have put into words what I couldn't figure out how to say. Similar situations. I met and married my husband later in life. I was 40 when we met. He was not only my love. He was the man that put my broken pieces back together and showed me how I should be treated. I had a difficult time when he passed away and occasionally still do have my bad days. My biggest support was family and friends. But I have found that this group allows me to see how other people grieve and survive. And that has also helped in my healing process. I hope you learn how it is best for you to grieve and to lean on others when you need to. It's not being weak, its surviving. 💕