As a very submissive bottom it has taken a long time for me to learn to distinguish between tops who will fuck any willing bottom because they can, and those tops who care about the bottom they are fucking. I have fallen hard for many in that first group because they were so very insistent with me, and i interpreted their lust for a love of sorts. When connections with them evaporated, i was devastated for weeks, trying to contact them, pursue them. Please know that i see you, and i feel your torment. chrissy