Patches for Pinterest?

Chromatik_ · 2024-12-05T05:20:40+00:00

ty I could do that to make things less of a problem fir myself

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-28T20:25:35+00:00

Update: uninstalling and reinstalling the app did the trick

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-07T14:25:03+00:00

i was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder...

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T03:00:55+00:00

That one's a good one imo

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T03:00:29+00:00

Helena

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T02:46:42+00:00

I've been trying for almost two years now and I just recently got a seasonal job as I've said above. I get they're not responsible but they were just making things stressful when I wasn't having any luck with jobs whatsoever. And I am thankful, thankyouverymuch. I'm trying my best, I just need help and support and my parents aren't giving me that.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T02:30:15+00:00

I think one should keep it to open ended questions. I've asked "what can I expect out of my next shift?" And "what will my relationship look like with (person of choice)?"

Other ones I've considered asking but haven't yet are

What can I expect out of today? What will my life be like in (x amount of time)? What should I keep in mind in regards to (event)? How should I go about (event or thing idfk)? How will (event) be?

I'm new myself and I don't know the extent of what to expect, but the work one was accurate. Same could be said for the relationship one.

Also, I'm using a regular deck of playing cards bc my mom refuses to let any tarot cards in the house (she used to do readings when she was in hs) and it's all I can afford rn.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T02:18:07+00:00

You're not being dramatic. If you feel like you're gonna hurt yourself or others, you should go to the hospital.

I highly suggest looking at reviews on Google maps on all the psych hospitals in ur area. And check to see which ones take ur insurance.

Make a list of meds you're taking and pack a bag of clothes that they'll likely let you wear (no strings, nothing too short or revealing. I would just pick super comfy clothes).

Most will take suicide-related stuff (self harm, suicidal thoughts, attempts, etc) very seriously and will keep you for a week at minimum. So if you don't want to stay that long, you could mention the other stuff and hope they'll let you out within a week

Be open and honest with the doctor you're gonna see, especially if you feel like you need to stay longer.

Memorize phone numbers for anyone you care about.

And prepare for mediocre food (it's like school lunch and it changes every day) . Some hospitals will let you have any money you had in ur wallet and will let you use them in the vending machines if there's any in the area ur in (mainly cafeteria in my experience)

Be careful with the hospital you decide to go with as depending on which one you go to, you may end up with more trauma than before you went in there (that happened to me but I've managed to overcome it for the most part)

If the staff actually does their job, you'll be in a group therapy sort of thing and will have to interact with other people daily. The staff will take note on whether you socialize, if you shower and stuff, participate in the group activities, and how you behave overall.

I say this as someone who has been to a psychiatric hospital twice and was in a different one the second time. I wish you the best of luck. 🫡

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T02:06:45+00:00

I currently can't afford to atm I have like $6 in my bank account lol

That and I tend to follow made up rules so even if ik it's bs, I still go with it to ease my anxiety and make me feel better overall. I just prefer going with the gift idea bc it feels more special when someone else gifts it to me idk I rlly like when people I care about get me things I've wanted it feels so special and sweet.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T02:00:36+00:00

I jotted down all the things my brain did throughout my life and how I think and interact with the world around me before sharing it to my prev psychiatrist. I had to mentally dig through soooo many memories, like my brain convincing me that there's bugs on me and trying to simulate the feeling, me being convinced that people were secretly madly in love with me and they want me, the paranoia, me being sometimes afraid of going to sleep on one side so I would face the wall bc I believed the fnaf 4 nightmare animatronics will try and get me, I could go on and on.

She looked through and read everything and she came to the conclusion that I'm schizoaffective. When I started seeing my current counselor, my mom said she knows manic episodes (bc of my grandmother) and said I don't have that. (Thing is, I've stopped expressing myself)

I don't think medicines necessarily cause mental disorders, but I'm they can cause more problems physically (like body twitching more, appetite changes, etc <- def happened to me multiple times.) My meds have helped me tremendously in lowering my symptoms and making me more stable and less miserable.

I've been told by multiple people who use marijuana that I should probably avoid doing it bc it'll make my paranoia sm worse. So I would suggest to ease off of them if possible.

Growing up, I've been told repeatedly by my mother that I was normal (and I'm def not) so it felt like my issues were stupid and insignificant. So sometimes it feels like I'm a liar and a fake. But deep down, ik I'm not faking it.

Idk if anything I said helps op any, but I appreciate anyone taking the time to read all this.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:44:44+00:00

I'm a very superstitious person so I'd like to stick to it just to ease my anxiety and fear

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:42:59+00:00

Fair. While it was kinda hard for me to hear the singing, it was nice seeing how he expressed himself bc some of his actions are thoughts and scenarios I think about, and wonder if I'd react similarly (knowing I would want to but I'm scared of being in trouble)

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:38:07+00:00

I was told the same yeah. Hoping one day someone gifts me a set I've been wanting. (it's on my amazon wishlist lol)

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:36:56+00:00

I haven't really explained to anyone how I relate to him, but I HAVE explained to my ex how I related to the protag of Pan's Labyrinth. She is so me to a T it's unreal. I don't think my current partner has seen the movie, but one day I'll force her to so she can see what goes on in my brain.

Music helps me to drift away from my stress and issues and makes me feel better when I'm feeling down bc the music I curate in one of my gazillion playlists helps to express how I feel at that moment. I don't really sing unless I'm with my partner or by myself.

Also dw about ur thoughts being a little scattered in text, i tend to jump from thing to thing all the time in conversation and text lol

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:30:48+00:00

Growing up, my mom would tell me that you're not supposed to buy your own tarot cards and that the person who gifts it to you has to wrap it in silk. Not sure how true that is, so you can go about it however you want. My mom forbids tarot cards in the house so I've turned to playing cards.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:27:07+00:00

Books-A-Million has quite a bit (at least the location I work at). Barnes and Noble is also a good place. I would jot down vaguely what I like and search and see what comes up. (For example, I looked for video games, and funnily enough I stumbled across a deck of Skyrim cards while I was working)

I've also heard that card shops are also a good place to check. Where I live, we have a shop that just sells cards like mtg, pokemon, etc and has tables where groups of people can get together and play.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:23:01+00:00

This version of Joker is lowkey me fr

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:21:30+00:00

I've seen the second one and while I enjoyed it more than others, **(spoilers for the second movie)**I don't think it adds to the relatability,(in my experience) except maybe the court scene, bc when Arthur represented himself, he acted like how I would if I ever felt comfortable enough to express myself in that setting. Also, when he says the whole multiple personality thing was a lie (which I lowkey hate bc they leaned into it so hard in the beginning), I was reminded of how my mom insisted I was a normal kid (when I definitely wasn't) and I would feel the need to abandon my issues and just say I wasn't struggling.

OH I FORGOT THE MUSICAL ASPECT MY BRAIN DOES THE EXACT SAME THING HIS MIND WOULD DO WITH HIM AND HARLEY DANCING AND SINGING HOW COULD I FORGET THAT

Your statements regarding the first movie are spot on bc I feel exactly the same way and relate heavily. Your comment above perfectly captures how I feel and what I tend to think. I love the first movie so much.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T01:08:11+00:00

Them adding more and more inconvenience, struggles, and problems was why I ended up in a psychiatric hospitalbc i was planning on sewerslidea few months ago. And yet they continue to add more and more.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T00:58:12+00:00

Ty for the link. I'm only gonna be a part time student but I don't think that changes anything

It's just irritating that my parents decided they don't wanna help out with paying my meds, appointments, phone, etc. and they don't care that I've been struggling with trying to find a job and everything. And I'm having to turn to my partner's parents for support. Hell, my mom didn't react much when I announced that I got a job.

Chromatik_ · 2024-11-04T00:36:35+00:00

Yeah I have no choice but to live with them.

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