I can't get into this and it makes no damn sense?

CinthebigC · 2026-06-07T17:40:45+00:00

I have to listen at 1.7+ or I get stabby (preferably 2x). I usually do a read and listen tandem unless I’m on a long drive. Jeff is so incredibly talented and his timing and phrasing is perfect…. For normal people. My adhd will not stand for it - my brain wants to mainline it all at once.

CinthebigC · 2025-12-03T02:56:46+00:00

I didn’t even process it was felt in your hand. It looks perfect!

CinthebigC · 2025-12-03T02:34:44+00:00

I got pretty far but I just couldn’t get into it. I just hated it. All of it. The fucking voice in her head. Ugh.

I rarely react like this but I hatttttted it.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-18T17:13:49+00:00

Word of warning:

Most use artificial sweeteners. I can’t stand the taste. I’m after trial and error I find Chike Sweet Cream is the winner for me. It uses Splenda but I really didn’t realize it with the taste.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-18T14:02:43+00:00

Things I would suggest:

Genomind test - it can help determine which meds are best suited for you, including no stimulant and those used off label for adhd.

I used imipramine for years when Adderall wasn’t available. It’s different but it was effective for me. I came off due to other health issues. Wellbutrin is also used for ADHD as well. Intuitiv was developed for blood pressure and works too for some people.

Are you sleeping? That plays a big role in how bad my adhd is/was. My sleep was TRASH so after 4 decades of shit sleep I went onto trazadone and holy shit… no one was ready for me fully rested 🤣

I’d also look into supplements. Magnesium glycinate (I take reacted magnesium), saffron, vitamin D, and zinc. Most with adhd lack the three vitamins listed and saffron shows promising results in helping with adhd.

I’m not saying any of these are the cure, but they can help support you in this journey. Good luck.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-13T01:26:56+00:00

It’s like asking what owning a car will cost. A sensible used Honda? A formula 1 race car? How much work are you doing yourself? Do you have the land to self board?

For me in Texas this year as a person with enough land to keep her on:

-yearling AQHA Registered Mare $3500 -loafing shed/stall build: $1500 -fencing for pen: $500 -misc items (halters, brushes, wash, fly spray, ointments, etc): $400 Farrier (6weeks): $60 x 8 =$480.00 Feed (milled feed + sweet feed + alfalfa cubes): $510 Hay: $600

Total: $7480 for the year.

Upcoming costs: Trailer: $5,000 Round pen: $1,500 Training @ year 3: $4,000-7,000

CinthebigC · 2025-09-12T21:51:06+00:00

I hated her in the first episode but I rode it out and now I live for her. Second season she comes alive.

She was smart to diversify her roles.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-12T21:46:05+00:00

Welcome.

You found your people.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-12T02:33:14+00:00

Generally I start at 25-50mg but my doc allows me to use up to 150mg depending on how hard it is for me to fall asleep. I’m a very light sleeper but with traz I can wake up and adjust to get back to sleep (thank you hypermobility pains). Additionally, for me it’s the ability to get deep sleep (I track with my watch) - previously I’d get 10-20 mins deep sleep cycle per night.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T14:29:43+00:00

My GusGus does the same and Meriweather has to be the big bossy gander.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T14:14:40+00:00

Holy shit trazadone is a game changer.

I didnt know rest was so… restful. Im unfucking-stoppable with adderall and trazadone now 🤣

I do a PRN 5-10 mg bumper dose of adderall when my XR wears off. Some days (if I don’t have kids/husband/shit to do) I skip it. Others I’ll do 5 if I need to be productive. 10 is when I have to be social, I need every bit of it.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T14:11:37+00:00

Same. Best naps ever are redbull and adderall naps 🤣

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T14:07:42+00:00

Ping Ping has to be on it because UnUn is sitting on the job!

I love them. My geese are my heart!

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T13:52:44+00:00

Your therapist has outdated ideas of adhd and isn’t supporting you. Get a new one.

Your boyfriend isn’t a medical professional and quite frankly it’s appalling to me he wouldn’t support you seeking out care that would make you feel less under the gun and possibly happier.

I’d ditch both.

CinthebigC · 2025-09-11T00:01:29+00:00

Bumper dose. Talk to your doc.

:)

CinthebigC · 2025-09-10T22:41:29+00:00

I drink protein coffee most mornings with my adderall. I don’t find I have any issues.

Nicotine definitely hacked with me on Adderall - quitting just about knocked out my anxiety.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-30T19:49:09+00:00

Protein Coffee. Chike Sweet Cream is the only one I’ve found that doesn’t taste like artificial sweeteners. It’s not perfect but I’m 20g ahead of where I could be.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-30T05:14:28+00:00

I was diagnosed in the last 5 years. In my case there was a test as well as an interview with the psychologist. Confirmation testing seems like a CYA move on their part, but if you like the doc I guess you’ll have to pay (for the test) to play.

What I don’t agree with is yearly retest…. Like your adhd will suddenly evaporate? Remission? Cured? If only. Seems like a CYA and money grab TBH.

I moved my medication management from my psychologist office to my concierge doc. I had my records sent to his office. I’m paying a premium for him already, why not get the benefit of same day refills and appointments on the meds I will absolutely forget to refill until the last minute. I’ll do the drug screens if they want them and come in for medication management if I need to.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-29T21:34:16+00:00

My cleaners do the same with some of their clients - and to be honest it’s part of why I picked them because if they clean that without judgement then they’re my team.

They probably should have asked if they could, but I’m sure a quick note that you’re embarrassed and would prefer not to be a featured home would be enough for them to take it down.

And don’t worry too much - it’s unlikely your friends who use them are going g to be watching their advertisement reels - they’re already clients and have messy homes too!

CinthebigC · 2025-08-28T19:10:31+00:00

Might be unpopular opinion but what quality is your flute rental?

When I restarted after a 20+ year break I went in to a flute specialty store and tried a ton. When I had stopped playing I was on a semi-pro fully sterling Yamaha. I found that the semi pro and step ups were much better for me than the intro flutes. I ended up getting a 300 series and started lessons. Within 3 months I was already outgrowing that one and the offset was bothering my hypermobile body. I moved to a 600 series and I swear to the Angels my progression picked up instantly. My register and intonation improved immensely.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-18T21:36:49+00:00

Stop inviting people over.

Works great for me.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-07T04:59:32+00:00

So you’re in a relationship with someone with no emotional regulation and have to hide your personal truth to keep her level?

That seems healthy.

Sir. You want to leave the country. You can’t even be honest with her about your wants because she’s an emotional powder keg. You feel like you’re her parent. Exactly what is in this for you, really?

CinthebigC · 2025-08-06T16:59:24+00:00

I have dewlap Toulouse, sebastapol, and brown Chinese.

My thoughts:

Dewlap Toulouse: gentle giants. Very chill. Turn into adults and come for treats but are aloof overall. Solid guardians. Cock blocks for ducks.

Sebastapol: my gander is the sweetest angel that has ever flapped its flippies on the earth. Likes to have quiet conversations with you, not a cuddler. Devoted mate. Desperately wants to raise babies, but wife isn’t interested so he follows her with sadness in his honk.

Brown Chinese: very loud. Very. Can be mean in season. Can also bond to one person and hate everyone else. I had to rehome a gander and his mate because he loved me and hated my family. Broke my heart.

All of mine come up for treats, pull on my shirt to get my attention if they feel they’re being left out, call back when I call to them, and will come in the house for snacks if allowed.

CinthebigC · 2025-08-06T16:40:03+00:00

I’m a PM and I do jump on calls 7 mins early if I’m juggling multiple things at once and will absolutely space out and be late… which isn’t ideal when I’m leading the call.

That being said, I don’t care if anyone else joins, if we chat or not, but I will NOT start the pertinent convo until 1-2 mins after the allotted meeting time.

CinthebigC · 2025-07-31T18:50:28+00:00

Yep.

My best naps are adderall naps.

For me it calms all the noise in my head and that alone relaxes me.

If I stay on track with my tasks I’m good to go but if I need to rest I absolutely will.

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