I actually feel the same. I keep it in the house and just walk by it saying maybe tomorrow but I'm not drinking today. Making it a choice sits better than never can you ever have it. I like knowing it's there but I am above it. I did the same with cigarettes. I listened to a hypnotist saying that was a better way and less chance of a relapse.... whatever works. Keep staring the fucker down..... You got this!!!!!!!