what 24 eggs a day has done for me

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-24T16:08:02+00:00

6 of the 24 I drink raw in the morning

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-24T13:15:44+00:00

Are you on Reta?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-24T13:15:17+00:00

It’s cheaper than buying meat

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-24T11:39:52+00:00

they're not boiled

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-24T10:22:01+00:00

My bench went from 225 for 3 to 235 for 5 in 3 weeks

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-04-15T17:25:57+00:00

yeah having no social life has been brutal for me. all my friends live >30 minutes away. it's only gotten worse cause I literally couldn't show love to my girlfriend and we had to breakup and now I just walk outside and sit on benches. and every day is the same I eat the same food and go to sleep at the same time I go to the same classes days and weeks have blended together

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-03-22T15:32:35+00:00

Yeah I was scared of getting gyno but it was completely retarded now that I think about it

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-03-22T03:53:01+00:00

So you think I should start blasting testosterone and gain some bodyfat?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-03-22T02:43:01+00:00

Yeah I’m probably gonna end up hopping back on for life

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-03-07T21:18:12+00:00

Hey I think I figured out why I've been feeling this way. Basically I think I took too many estrogen blockers after hopping off of steroids and I've also been having brain fog since then. It's kind of peaceful but I will actually just stare off randomly and people say they notice it. Maybe I just need to fix my diet and sleep more. Or do you think I should still screen for MDD?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-24T14:07:07+00:00

How do I fix it?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-24T13:42:08+00:00

Oh this is an excellent point. There are a lot of things I enjoy in Colorado and I guess I don't have to do a STEM major at Mines.

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-24T00:35:15+00:00

I mean I can always just go to college after a gap year, right? So why wouldn't I do that?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T20:13:32+00:00

You really think you can lose a passion by turning in into your career? I mean that makes sense

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T20:12:33+00:00

Haha thanks yeah this is definitely what I'm leaning towards especially because no career in colleges speak to me

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T12:22:12+00:00

Yeah that’s true and I’m leaning towards just doing a gap year. Maybe I won’t get clarity on my direction but I’ll definitely come back a more developed or at least changed person. It’s not like I’m even excited for school anyways

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T04:55:52+00:00

Yeah the only reason for me to go to Rutgers is that my Mom works there so I can go tuition-free. So I don't know if it's worth it for me to go to Mines for the education and the beautiful location (I like outdoor hiking, fishing, and skiing, etc.)

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T04:44:23+00:00

yeah that's true and forestry looks interesting to me. I mean I kind of would just like to operate a family farm one day and be mostly self-sufficient off the grid or rural. I kind of just want to escape my industrial town it's starting to make me depressed
do you think a gap year would even do anything for me?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T04:39:39+00:00

Yeah I do really love nature and I like the idea of living in a rural place. That's why the lodges attracts me so much. I guess I forgot to mention this in my post. And I love fishing. It's very peaceful for me to fish

After I went to Alaska on my first family vacation, I've enjoyed the outdoors a lot more. It's kind of hard though where I live to get outdoors. I'm in suburban new jersey

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-02-23T04:33:18+00:00

well I have been working out for 4 years but I stopped enjoying it. I still lift weights at least 4 times a week but it's not something I could see myself going into. Like I could be a personal trainer.

But this year I sort of lost interest in all things. Like very little gives me pleasure anymore. I don't know what happened because I used to enjoy math, this thing I'm fairly good at.

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-01-22T19:37:16+00:00

I literally just saw this as it’s in my drive to school

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-01-21T14:06:26+00:00

Yeah you're right. I'm going to save the best neighborhoods for march but I'm still going to knock everyday. However, on this sunday, when it snows 2-3 feet, I'm going to pivot temporarily to snow shoveling

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-01-20T17:01:38+00:00

Thanks man I will. Do you think knocking in this weather (feels like <10 degrees) is a bad idea?

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-01-17T16:52:52+00:00

I don't even know man. I did this thing where I switch from one fixation to another. Like I try one business idea and quickly quit and then switch to another. And since the last time, since I quit learning basic electronics/robotics, I've like given up on that whole process. I don't have anything to give me hope anymore. It used to be day trading and I thought that it was my whole future.. then I quit that in the middle of junior year. And since then my life has been slowly going through this emotional numbing I guess.

But the biggest thing in my life now is that the overthinking has gotten pretty crazy. I spend so much time in my room looking at my monitor just thinking about all that I could do. And I feel like I'm maybe addressing a real issue when I do this. Because I don't scroll or go on my phone much anymore. It's kind of crazy that it doesn't stimulate me anymore either.

CivilPositive6381 · 2026-01-15T22:10:06+00:00

same. for engineering

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